quotidienne: coffee + toast 5:4

ok
well, i have some good news and some bad news
regarding twc's communications with me
they decided that since i got severance
that i do not get paid from them
for april and may
however
it looks like i am going to get
two weeks of march
one of which will include the $600
so
almost a thousand dollars
plus the twelve hundred that i will theoretically get
so
not nothing
and i figure if i'm not eligible for the unemployment pay out
for april or may
that should mean that i'm not expected to have to
look for work during may
which is good
because they sent me an email
that was like

what?!
not working yet
all grocery store are hiring everyone
sight unseen
get your ass down to acme plaguetown works
you lazy piece of shit

ok
that's a slight exaggeration (really? i spelled that right?)
they also were kind enough to tell me
that if i didn't want all the hassle of requesting payment
for weeks i wasn't gonna get paid anyway
i could just drop out
and easily re-apply if i still didn't have a job in june

yeah, right
it took a full month to not quite have money in my hand
but have paperwork making it look like it might happen
in forty-eight hours
i think i can manage, thanks ever-so

i was really hoping
with all the talk of retro
i'd get two weeks of $600
but whatever
we'll see how long it takes em
to like actually put some kinda somethin like a plan
there'll be a second wave in a couple weeks
and then they'll realize
it's not gonna go away just because we got bored with it

wow
it got late fast
i probably missed the briefing
and i didn't watch anything while i was feeling so bad

i feel better obvi
i still have a headache
but it comes and goes
my face is broken out and my chin is full
full of what i assume to be cystic acne
but it's gone down since yesterday when i was afraid it might blow
if the pressure got any higher

but
none of that matters
i feel happy
and semi-hopeful that this will all be ok, somehow
even though
the way it is being managed
looked at objectively
doesn't seem
cause for optimism (really?!  i thought sure that was spelled wrong)

i love you
you are such a beautiful bird