and yet more nite chat: 5:21

i would like to be all dreamy and romantic
i know that would be better
words of love
you could probably use some
words of love

i love you
you have been so much
through all of this
that even if i didn't love you already
i would love you now
i don't love you less
that's not what's going on here
i'm just kinda losing it
like
maybe i'm stir crazy
or
really
what i think is happening
my brain is trying to go too many directions at once
and it's just sort of shorting out

anyway
i'm sorry
i'm not being as supportive as i would like to be
and i'm not giving you what you want, for sure
and maybe not what you need, either
i'm gonna try to pull it together
i promise
please don't stop loving me for not being entertaining enough
and please don't take that as an insult
i don't really think you'd do that
but
it's a fear
left over from childhood
that i had to say out loud

goodnight sweetheart
i think you are wonderful
and i will try to be more
more
tomorrow
i love you very much