i feel as though
this is the answer
if this is a riddle
but
was it a riddle
i also feel like
this is somehow a better representation
of the writer's mind
than anything i've ever heard before
maybe i'm wrong
maybe i'm crazy
but
that's what it seems like
i think that ability to look at things
even as they are happening to you
as a narrative
somehow
meta
and then
the ability to play them back
and change the narrative
while still having it be
the narrative
but
if it wasn't a riddle
then
if i post this
it will probably be saying something mean
and i don't want to do that
maybe
he just wants to talk to someone who understands him
but i don't think i do
i probably could
but
i think he's gonna need to give me more than that to go on
and
i don't want to sound selfish
but
is he gonna make any effort to understand me
i don't feel like he's ever had much interest in me
and
i don't know that i've really got it in me
unless it's gonna be a reciprocal thing
i'm not sure that i know what to do
