II nite chat: 5:30

it's the damnedest thing
but my violent cat
the one who used to scare me
he is fascinated by small humans

children
apparently like cats
and he likes them too

he wants to go out
and i don't really like just having the door open
but i can't just put him out
because
gray cat will chase him
and if gray cat catches him
he will bite him and i cannot afford to betaking him to the vet
to get his shameful bottom bite wounds
emptied of puss and injected with anti biotics
but i can't just not let him out
so
i've compromised
i let him out
i put the chain on the door
i put a flip flop in the door
so if the wind
or whatever it is that keeps making it close on it's own
if that happens it won't close

and
i am either right here
or in the kitchen
or bathroom
i don't like it
but it seems the best compromise

anyway
there aren't a lot of kids
but there are some
and i've seen him from a distance making friends
but lately

there's a japanese man
with a baby backpack
and a small girl [maybe as much as three]
and they walk by
the reason i say japanese
in addition to looking japanese
he doesn't seem to speak english very well
so i'm going with japanese rather than japanese-american
or something like that

the little girl
is fascinated with kitty
and he is fascinated with her
and he seems to have a lot of self control
and he seems to understand that
scratching and biting hurts people
and he doesn't seem to want to do that
but
if she had asked me
i'm afraid i would still have advised against it
i don't trust him

but
they were like two doors down
she and her dad were walking down the street
and kitty was at the street
and she was trying to pet him
and he kept
running back to the steps
away from her
to lay on the ground rolling around and looking cute
i assume
because he was getting over-stimulated
and needed to get away
so he wouldn't accidentally hurt her

he has really come a long way

now
when i'm in my chair
he doesn't walk up to me and cut me
he has three stations of the feeding request
one he sits in front of me
looking up expectantly
possibly putting him foot on my leg non-aggressively
this usually works at this station
however
if i'm in the middle of something
and putting him off
he will go to station two
where he sits on the back of the chair
and pats me on the shoulder
and
if that doesn't work
he goes to station three
where he knocks over things
on my chair-side table
my face mist bottle is his current favorite
he does this very gently
like
let's understand each other
i'm not trying to do any damage
i'm not trying to break anything
i am just really really trying to get your attention, see

if he breaks something
i get mad
and i get all involved in trying to clean it up
or fix it
or other things that don't lead to quick feeding outcomes

kitty and i have come a long way