really made me happy
& strangely
I was hearing the theme from the young & the restless when I was falling asleep last night & then again this morning
strangely because
THAT was not a soap opera I watched
I guess it came on
BEFORE
or something
because I'd heard the music
I think maybe it was
a little more
SPICY
or something
I'm maybe
trying to get a feel for myself as
I don't think I WAS ever
EXTREMELY
SHY
THAT
is part of this
newer CRAZY
that's all an oversimplification
RECENTLY
I've discovered that I have Saturn
in the first house
& that means
MAYBE
I have some out in the world disciplined
being seen type destiny
MAYBE
especially when combined with the
SAGITTARIUS midheaven
& I remembered that
I WAS MORE like THAT
than I feel like I am currently
BUT
I'm building a new thing-y
& I realize
the old thing-y was
BROKEN
I don't want to put the broken stuff
back in, but that's easier said than done
MAYBE
I am not sure what I'm doing
goodnight sweetheart
I LOVE you VERY much
