nite chat: 5:15

ok
so i brushed my hair today
that may not sound like a big thing
but
i had put it in a braid
and it was fine
and
i don't remember the last time i brushed it
i washed it
i do remember washing it
at least three times
since quarantine started
but
how long has that been
eight weeks?
that seems like not enough
but i just counted it
i don't think it's been more than a week
but
if i'm honest
i'm not completely certain of that
i haven't any of the times
we're postulating three
none of those times have i wash rinse repeat-ed
they were one washes
so not really good washes

and the last time
i let it air dry
and re-braided it
without brushing it
but i didn't brush it before i washed it either

i've had it in a braid
like the whole time
that's how i wear my hair now

but today
i looked at myself
and i was a little scared
i took down my hair

and it was about 30% of the way
to three big fuckin dreadlocks
which
i had mixed feelings
like yeah m'n
but
no

so i untangled it
which was a lot easier than it has ever been before
and brushed it out
and
did not put it back in a braid
it's currently in a knot at the back of my head

also
i had to wear a bra
yesterday and today
and it's more comfortable
i'm hoping i have not just fucked up my tits permanently
my hair is gross
frizzy and waxy at the same time

i think
going to live in a cave right now
is probably the right way to go
sheesh

i'm certain i gained back the weight i lost
i don't think i've gained more than that
but i haven't weighed
the bras are not tight at all
my face was almost clear
and then i woke up with chin action again
i had a baked potato with sour cream
so maybe it's dairy
i also
took a new tincture
i ordered it back in march
but she was making it
so i knew i wasn't gonna get it til may

it's alder

and, in case you don't want to read all that
it does a lot of good stuff
but one thing it does is clean your lymph
and another thing it does is work against virus

so
when all this started
i decided that clearing my lymph
which has always been a problem for me
my whole life
would be a good way to prepare me to fight
that and boost immunuty
and strengthen lungs

and i've been feeling like it was working ok
but i took the alder for the first time last night
which i wasn't planning to do
i was planning to save it until the plague came
and then pull out the big guns

but
then i'm like
how do you know you're not allergic to it
how do you know it's not gonna make you sicker
you should try it
yeah yeah ok ok fine
so i try it
and this morning
i wake up
no congestion
no trouble waking up
feeling pretty good
but with clogged chin action
not too bad
not cystic
and
if i put on a tiny bit of makeup
you wouldn't notice it

so what i'm saying
is that in addition to the devil's claw
i've added in something else
so it might be detox-y detox
in fact yes
my tongue is coated white
that means detox
and it's the end of the day
generally you're not detox'n much
once ya start drinkin the coffee

sexy, huh?!


i was trying to find out
what are the qualifications
for an herbalist, since i seem to be doing that
without any prompting
and i pretty much do even before times
and, ya know what
there aren't really any specifically
there are "certification" programs
but there's no like state certifying license
i don't think in any state
and the programs are kinda sketch, generally
so idk
i was surprised

this red alder stuff is good
sometimes i put the tinctures in water
but mostly i just put the drops under my tongue
[not the poke root though
that i put in liquid and watch very carefully
because i cannot be exact with the just drop it in your mouth method]
and when i'm doing the poke
i usually add the osha or motherwort or whatever
in at the same time
but
i've decided that generally the under the tongue works better
so i mostly do that

anyway
you can tell it's good
like it just has that energy about it
this is the stuff!

there's some left

i'm not saying that elecampane and calendula and osha and usnea
are not the thing or poke
but it's the thing's thing, see

my cuticles look ok, at least
two or three weeks ago
i looked at my hands
and my cuticles
which are normally fighting for their very lives
because of all the boxes and cardboard
and etc
realized they were free range cuticles now
and grew like a third of the way up my nails
[that might be an exaggeration]
(really?  two "g"s)
so i had to oil them to soften them
and push them back
but they were thick
and it was difficult
but
after some more massaging
they calmed down and went back to normal
but it took a couple days

the nails are cleaned and filed
the cuticles are under control
as long as you're only looking at my hands--  i'm golden
they've been in bleach water
and i've been washing them
but they are moisturized and in good shape

everything else
needs work

i'm tired
i think maybe i'll go to bed a little early
i love you very much sweetheart
i'm sorry i'm the wild woman of borealis
sleep well