nite chat: 5:8

so
i tried a different tea configuration--  nettle + berry blend - whatever apple i could pick out
there is still some apple and it is sweeter than i'd like
but the flavor is good

i did not buy, but did research ingredients in semi bulk
[mountain rose herbs]
and i think suma might be the ingredient
because i was wanting to keep things simple
and i thought
one bark = devil's club
one berry = hawthorn or schizandra
one herb = nettle
one root =
and there was a lot of debate for me about that
there are a ton of good roots
with very good medicinal properties
but when i saw suma
i got very excited
because i remember a couple of times
i have found suma supplements
and i always felt like they really worked for me
like my body liked them
and i was thinking p'au d'arco
which is very strong and has a lot of good functions
but suma is an adaptogen
p'au d'arco does not taste good apparently
so would be poorly suited to a tea
but suma is supposed to be vaguely vanillic
i'm not sure what devil's club tastes like
but the people drinking the tea were going all like yum
so whatever i'll know soon
i suppose i could also do

one flower =
and that would allow me to add
rose hips
or calendula
or something else

so
like
pending ingredients
this is what i'm going with
although my interest has been piqued with
ivan chai which is a traditional russian fermented fireweed tea
i may at some point look into that
but
i think i've got enough to be getting on with here

i spent a kind of a long time on that

and
that probably is not what you want to know
so, what tea are we drinking by the fire
in your fantasy of us together

*sigh*
this is one of my problems
it's a problem with my writing too

i really do want to develop the perfect health tea
and i think this is super fun
but i recognize that it may not be that fun

i guess i'm a little worried
about this whole
our plan is not to have a plan thing
i guess i'm thinking immunity and health
are like very important

also
i'm freaking out a little bit
because i liked one of her comments
and i didn't realize it was her
and then i went back to read a thread
and realized it was her
and i didn't want to un-like it
but i don't want her to think i'm trying to tell her something
and maybe she didn't notice
and maybe it didn't cause you any trouble
but i'm worried that it did

so maybe i'm a little more on edge than i though i was

i love you

i liked that combo you were wearing
the hat and shirt and shirt jacket
the pattern and color
it was unusual for you

also
that last song on my playlist
is not the one i wanted
it's just what was available
if you know what i mean

ok
i almost forgot
i have a prayer i need to write