III nite chat: 5:30

i love you
i hope my many moods
have not been difficult for you
i don't feel like i've done that well
with the whole quarantine thing
and you
i feel like you have done great
handled things so so well
and
i don't want this to sound some kinda way
but
i feel like you have really come into you're own
now
i don't mean by that
that you're doing better than you were before
probably you aren't making as much money
and probably you have had your challenges
but
the people who love you
have been able to have more of you
without
at least a lot of the travel and such
that you used to have to do
and
you get to be with your family

i still haven't left the house

you look good
you sound good
you are nothing short of
wonderful
and i hope you feel every bit of the wonderful


oh
i forgot to tell you my dream
there was a old woolworths
at least i'm pretty sure it was woolworths
i'm pretty sure i was calling it woolco in the dream
but i think woolco was a big dept store
i'm pretty sure the five and dime type thing in the malls
with the grill restaurant thing
was a woolworths
could be wrong
anyway, doesn't matter
it was closed
the majority of the store was empty
but they had a cafeteria type line
with the grill and stuff behind it
and some booths and tables
just no stuff in the store

when i had been frequenting this thing
it wasn't quite a five and dime anymore
it was kind of a drug store, kind of
and the grill wasn't quite a soda fountain anymore
but this was before malls had food courts
which didn't happen until like the early eighties

so this was like the one at northwest mall
when i was a kid
there was some sort a place where you could buy drinks
and maybe cookies or something
memorial city had the corn dog place
but northwest had some sort of snack thing
it might have had ice cream too
i can't remember
they also had an italian restaurant
not like fancy
like a pizza parlour
but they had other italian food
very informal but they did have tables and stuff
not just like take away
there was picadilly cafeteria

anyway
whatever
i went to this place
and i was kinda remembering
all the memories of that place and time
and
for some reason i associate it with this five day diet
that i wish i still had
because it worked so well
it was a food combining diet
so you got to eat
not a lot of calories though, actually
but
breakfast was an egg any style except fried
one piece of dry wheat toast
half a grapefruit
and black coffee or tea
but
then i don't remember
because it was different after that
i know there was asparagus
and sliced tomatoes
and cottage cheese
and a lamb chop
but that is not five days worth of lunches and dinners

and you'd lose ten pounds
no joke
i've tried every combination of looking it up
everything i can think of
but
to no avail

anyway
i'm not sure exactly how that got associated
with this northwest mall location
joan didn't live near there
and though i did
if i was staying with her
and we were doing it together
i can't imagine we would have gone there
and
i mean
nobody else would have made special food for me
so if i was doing it
it must have been with her

anyway
none of that was happening
i was just remembering that
i was admiring the set up
and wondering if it was meant to be temporary
or if they were just starting and didn't have it completed yet

the cafeteria line
was rather like the one they had at the galleria
when i was really little
when they first built it
where my dad always got me the hot chocolate
that always burned my mouth so bad
but i just remembered that now
it wasn't something i was thinking about in the dream

i was going to get
a grilled cheese sandwich
and a cup of coffee
but
when i got in line
somebody came up to me
like to expedite
asked me what i wanted
and then told me
oh no
just go to a table
we'll bring it to you

which didn't make sense to me
but
i wasn't displeased


what i want to do
right now
is go to this weird place i went to in pennsylvania
it was called, i think
a smorgasborg
it was in amish country
and it was full of foods that seemed slightly weird to me
it was like a buffet
not unlike a golden corral
or a steak country kitchen
in format
but
there was a big shopping thing
where you could buy all kinds of crap
that i couldn't quite believe anyone would want
and it was kind of fancy
but not
not pretty or nice
just
lots of geometric shapes to the buffet
and lots of archways
idk
it was weird
and i cannot believe that i want to go there now
but
for some reason i do

i didn't even really like that food
and i was looking for a video
but i can't remember what it was called
and i can't find it