nite chat: 5:13

i feel restless
i guess that's better
i want snacks
i don't have what i want
i have berries like golden berries
that's too tart
i have chocolate bunny--  but i should save that
in case things get worse
i had two chocolate bunnies
i think i ate the other one last night
i have toast
i actually have some cheese
monterey jack, but still
i have avocados and oranges
i have eaten all those things for snacks
and enjoyed them
but what i want, right now,is something like
potato chips
or
salt water taffy
and if i eat any of those other things
it will not satisfy me
and i don't need the calories if it won't make it better

what i should eat is eggs
i've been getting eggs in my imperfect box
every week
because they give you the option to make it
and every week thing
and if you do you get eggs first before the other boxes
and they were out of eggs when i wanted eggs
so i was like fuck it yeah fuckin eggs
and not i have two dozen eggs in my refrigerator (no "d")
they're on the small side
but that's still a lot of eggs

i did the order monday
and it was a study in editing
i went through and put everything that looked good
and then i had to back way off
because i had like forty things
and it was like a hundred dollars
which is way way too much
maybe more than forty
they had dandelion greens!
and there was an option to put those every week
and i'll believe that when i see it
because that's super good for you
not as tasty as collard greens, bitter

they had eggplant
and last time i ordered eggplant they were tiny
so i ordered three
now watch them be enormous
and they had the miyako vegan butter
and i'm like are you really gonna pay more
for vegan butter than grass fed butter
and i'm like yeah, it's the best butter ever

i didn't order
oh yeah i did--  yay me
any dried fruit
pineapple!  and raisins!
onions and carrots and celery
i took off the avocados because i ordered too many
and i have to catch up
only two oranges, same reason
they didn't have the broccoli florets that i'm supposed to get
every week and i'm bummed about that

i took off a bunch of snacks
chocolate covered raisins
truffle popcorn
teriyaki dried bananas
something that it recommended that was snacks
that i thought sounded disgusting
but now i can't remember what it was

i just checked each of the three "custom packs"
just to funnel more food
it's like meat, dairy, snacks
but
meat includes fish
dairy includes the hope of cheese
snacks are, well, snacks
and their idea of what is a tasty snack is sometimes
just weird

so
i got ground hamburger--  which i took off
i got these little cheese bites that are processed cheese--  which i took off
i got weird snacks--  which i took off

the gamble didn't work out well for me this time

i did add on chicken sausage with spinach and feta--  not gonna lie

ok
i just checked my order
which i feel like i couldn't do the last time i tried
dandelion greens have been removed
see they didn't even have the first week of the every week
but
very excited
i forgot i'm getting sonoma brinery pickles
and
i forgot i'm getting garlic

they don't give you the option to add to every week
for all items
so i wonder if they found somebody local
and they want to see who's interested
i really hope i start getting them
maybe i can make them with eggs

pickles!

this these here

but not that expensive


real pickles!

and the beans came
and i was able to score some fire roasted tomatoes (canned)
so i can make those beans if i want

but
right now i want potato chips
and it's good i don't have them
because i do not need the salt

i love you very much
also
i saw these here
and i thought of your kid
it would not be appropriate for me to give them to her
but, if it were, i would have
maybe i'm wrong, but i think she would like them
they're regular playing cards

goodnight sweetheart
i love you very much