I'm not sure whether I can explain everything
I kept circling and looping
& I'm LIKE
I've made my decisions
WHY am I STILL
CIRCLING
& I was LIKE
BECAUSE
I'm just
passively waiting & hoping it's gonna work out
BUT
I NEED to ACTIVELY DO
something
the place she was kept calling me
& then they said the twenty fourth
WHAT do you want to DO
SO
I was LIKE
I need to CALL
BUT
she got sent BACK to the hospital
for shortness of breath
austensibly
BUT
probably really to get her off their hands
SO
the hospital called me
I SAID
we have a history of narcissistic abuse
& she broke the relationship
she's my mother
& I care
BUT
I can't really be involved
& the doctor said
I UNDERSTAND COMPLETELY
I will make sure they don't
BOTHER you
I can't express to you
HOW
that made me
FEEL
the anxiety is GONE
BUT the FEELS
not so much
