check in may 9th

BIG 

move forward 

on the neck and shoulder 

BODY 

whatever 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I'm gonna try to sleep now

I realize 

I didn't talk today 

I'm having FEELS about 

a bunch of stuff 

& they're 

not

really talk-about-able

YET

& MAYBE 

some of them won't be coherent enough to talk about at all

& MAYBE 

some of them I don't want to talk about 

I'm kinda grieving who I hoped my mother 

MIGHT be 

& I've been staying away from the news

because I don't want to have to feel that way about ameriKKKa too

I'm trying to connect to 
ME and my 

narrative thread

but I've been a little down today 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

sleep now, maybe

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 

I've never been able to read

proust

I looked dr freeland up

she's retired now

I think she had just started (more or less)

when I was taking her classes

she hadn't written her books yet

there are parts of me

I haven't taken out to look at

for a long time 

tori amos has a new

like really new

album

when I met you

I still remember the strange

supernatural quality about the atmosphere 

like I could SEE our auras or something 

I watched a video about twin flames

& THAT could be what's going on 

that could explain the quantum entanglement 

& that image I used to have

about us embracing 

& bursting into flames

I'm not sure how it all fits together 

is that a vision

LIKE 

OH

it will be 

SO 

HOT

at this point

it's LIKE 

we've been together forever 

BUT 

not yet been together 

& that's an unusual 

thing