nite chat: 5:12

i'm like pre-verbal today
i've been depressed
my mom

also
worry about stuff

i don't want to write you whine-y stuff

so anyway
the cards said the most important thing i need to know
is the hierophant [romeo + juliet]
so
i know i need to write to you
but
i've been at a loss

i am looking forward to the shaman tincture
it finally shipped
but i don't want to lose my memories
even if they are bad
because
maybe i need those memories
i wouldn't mind if they became non-landmine-y, though

i've been adding stuff everywhere
don't freak out

i love you
and i'm not trying to tell you
anything
with at least most of it
if something seems good then yeah, ok
i'm not trying to say anything
negative

i wanted to play some staves music
but all their lyrics are kinda wrong
but their voices
the harmonies
so good

i realize this isn't enough

but
it took so many tries