standing on the moon: 4:19

ok
actually i have given quite a bit of thought
to the idea of standing on the surface of the moon
and
truthfully
i feel like i can construct it
convincingly enough to write about it
from all the footage i've seen
and the strange real life landscapes i've trod
and
this ten minutes on the moon
is such a me thing that i'm surprised i don't pick it
because a lot of the core experiences that i would write about
didn't necessarily have a lot of duration of experience
what they have is intensity of experience

there are two reason i do not choose it

i really would love to spend a year in europe
not even going all over, necessarily
but
the kind of week in europe
two weeks in europe
that i might possibly be able to pull off
would not give me the experience i'm looking for
i want to live on a boat along the canal in amsterdam
and maybe someplace in sweeden as well
i would like to have some crazy experience in iceland
chat with an old god, perhaps
maybe see a bull fight
i don't know if i can handle it
but
ya gotta have those hemingway homages
i want to learn something about basques

i don't really want to fly there
i hate to fly
if i could take a ship
i think i'd rather do that
but
i guess if i was going for a year
maybe i could suck it up and fly


the other reason
i am terrified of an oxygen free environment
the idea of having
a little bit of fabric
between me
and horrifying death
doesn't sound worth the experience
ten minutes
what am i gonna get on the surface of the moon
in ten minutes

WOW!

and
it would be a great wow
but
i feel like i can pre-imagine 75% of that wow
and, in the end
i'd rather have the hundred smaller wows