quotidienne: coffee + toast 4:10

ok
that idea seems crazier in the light of day
that's a pretty big project
regardless of whether it's right to do it
it doesn't seem much like a first attempt

but
maybe
it's break into piece-able
and
i wasn't trying to imply
that that poem was like the format
or anything
it's just easy to write haikus
and so when i'm having trouble
writing a poem
i just do that
it gives me a format
which makes it more like a riddle than a raven
or a writing desk

toast with walnut butter
which some days can taste bland
but today tastes salty and delicious
coffee with some sort of coconut + nut milk
because i'm almost out of soy milk
and i'm trying to stretch it until i get groceries
which i'm trying to stretch
and i don't need much except soy milk

i got up at noon

i feel great
i was enjoying laying in the bed
i enjoyed my shower
my face is almost cleared up

i was going to request payment last night
but then i realized it was going to be more complicated
because i was going to have to list my severance
and probably my vacation time and float
which was about 90 hours
so that whole thing is closer to the $6000 total
that i would be allowed to collect for 6 months of unemployment
so
i may have been right
i may not get anything from unemployment
however
it sounds like i will be eligible for the other stuff
so we'll see
strangely, i'm not stressed about it

but i did think it was better to do it
when i'm like coherent and stuff
so i don't fuck it up

hopefully you're having a good day
and
that i didn't scare you away with my
conceptual ideas
they aren't meant to fleece people
they are meant to be for the good

i'll grant you it's not the kind of thing
a nine or ten year old comes up with
but maybe it is, sort of
don't you know a bunch of kids that age
who started non-profits?
anyway
if you spend a lot of your time talking to god
and you have tried going to churches
to try to find a place that feels right
and read about religions
to try to find one that matches your beliefs
and
you didn't find a match
it's not that far fetched

anyway
sorry if i weirded you out