quotidienne: coffee + toast

12 grain bread with grass fed butter
coffee with soy milk
that feels more authentic
maybe it's better
maybe it's not
we'll see
but
i could feel myself getting all caught up
in the need to research and stuff
to the exclusion of
actually doing anything

man
i feel exactly like
if i really didn't get any sleep
it is not a good feeling

i am dreading this whole calling process
maybe it will be easy and i will get right through
then i dread the conversation
and the information
but
first i am dreading the calling
because i do not expect it to be easy and go right through

i love you