FALLS AWAY
from me
I know I've mentioned before, but it's a recurring
there's a WAY
I feel connected and a WAY
NOT
& I WONDER
is the answer to LOOK
MAYBE
& THEN
I wonder LIKE which is
EGO
in the END, do I got enough, too much, none
WHAT
does that MEAN
WHY
can't I ANSWER that question
is it that I can't see myself clearly enough
BLIND SPOTS
I've been thinking lately
when I wanted to
QUIT dance
because I had caught on
I wasn't good enough
my body shape was wrong
he didn't have anything to do with it
my mom was happy to stop
paying for lessons
BUT
he called me
& he SAID
do don't have to quit things
because you can't do them professionally
you can just do things
because you love to do them
I don't think I completely disagreed
in theory
BUT
it made NO sense
with regard to DANCE
HOW much of THAT
had to DO
with the
MYSTIQUE of DANCE
it had an internal structure
& THAT was as much
PART of the fantasy
of being a dancer
it wasn't ABOUT
DANCING in the park, ya KNOW
MAYBE
I'm not sure what he was trying to warn me AGAINST
WHAT PART
of these things I have wanted
MIGHT tell me
something
I enjoyed interacting with the physical world
in the WAY that they talk about it
FEELING like you're being
PULLED straight up
by a STRING
that runs through your spine
OUT the TOP of
your HEAD
& you are supposed to be EMOTING
TELLING a STORY
with your body
I guess
THAT would have continued
I could have kept THAT
BUT
I guess this is WHY
I KEEP coming
back to TAI CHI or some sort of ENERGY system
