I WANT to drive up the coast
I WANT to
I was really hoping
I could somehow
BUT
I can't
& I don't know if that was obvious
because of the mental
STATE of ME
or if
it seemed like I might pull it off
BUT
I don't want to
finesse it all around
I badly wanted to do the WHOLE thing
& I'm unhappy about not
& maybe I'm letting you down
BUT
I can't
I can't do the whole thing
& I don't think
ANY of it looking LIKELY
this time
& ALL the FEELS
I FEEL
saying that
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart
goodnight
