Saturday, December 27, 2025

integration

I guess the realization that 
I have to work for myself 

because 
I just am fundamentally unsuited
to do anything else 

KINDA 
piles on to
I don't know HOW to make 
THIS particular 
UNIT

DO things CORRECTLY 

& THAT
SOUNDS 

KINDA WEIRD 


& it should 
because it LAYERS

I'm not sure how my operating system works
I have a hard time getting 
the outcome I'm looking for 
+
THIS UNIT
doesn't COMPLY 


& this is a problem I come back to again & again 

SOME of the PARTS 
MAYBE 
they aren't as committed to integration 

my dad USED to TELL me 
that he was the
FASTEST 
& BEST
sign painter

SO that
when he screwed something up 
TRANSPOSED 
LETTERS 
misunderstood written directions 

NOBODY 
was looking to fire him

the WAY you 
DO things
is
FAST
& BETTER than ANYONE else 

HOW much 
of THAT did I ABSORB