Tuesday, December 16, 2025

exhausted, going to bed

I'm going to talk to the social worker tomorrow 
assuming the meeting is still happening 
I did find her Charles Schwab statement 
& she doesn't seem to be lying about 
having money

I will talk to her
& probably 
her lawyer
if I can find him

I don't really think I can live with 
turning her over to the state
or whatever 
BUT 
I don't want to be 
TRAPPED 
into anything 
& I don't trust her at all

SO
IDK
what is going to happen 
BUT 
I'm trying to keep an open mind

I'm not signing anything 
until I feel like I have a handle on it

BUT 
I don't want to be the worst person ever 
EITHER 

I didn't go see her
& I didn't try to call back
& if she & marian worked out
something on their own to cut me out
THAT
is A OK with me 

BUT 
I don't think power of attorney 
gives me the power to make her go into a nursing home if she doesn't want to 
I think it gives me power 
to act FOR her
BUT 
NOT 
OVER her
& I'm not sure that helps

because she WANTS 
OFTEN 
contradictory sh*t 
or crazy sh*t
& I don't want to hear it anymore 

ANYWAY 
I'm exhausted and I'm going to bed

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶 
I hope to be more fun
hopefully soon
goodnight 
❤️