I started working at some place
some kind of mash up
of places I've worked
before
& the wanted me to pick a color code
for my schedule
which I'm not exactly clear now
what that meant
BUT
the code I picked
was BLUE
I'm awake
I'm drinking coffee
I have anxiety about going to see her
BUT
I want to interact with
as many of her regular team
as possible
to make it clear
she need to
WORK
not just lay around and feel sorry for herself
OR
WHATEVER
ya KNOW
she was seeming kinda scared and rejected
& I ASKED her if she wanted to talk about it
even though she greeted me with
SO
you slept til TWO
which was neither respectful nor friendly
BUT
she didn't WANT to
TALK
she wanted to complain
& insinuate
that I put her in a sh*tty place on purpose
it's a boutique nursing home
& one of only four choices I had
which I researched
which she didn't
want to do on her phone in the hospital room
I called her nurse friend
as per her request
& that eliminated two of the four
one was fancier and close to me
one was less fancy
& NOT
I put those as first and second choice
in the order of closeness
because if you don't
stop by
THEN
maybe nobody cares
& maybe when you are a f*CKing b*tch
they then just don't try so hard
BUT
if it looks like people
CARE
about you
they give you more
benefit of the doubt
MAYBE it doesn't matter
