I had BET somebody
my therapist
would cancel
I guess it was Monday he contacted me
I'm coming back this
WEEKEND
I can see you 2/16
I'm LIKE
THIS weekend is at the END of the WEEK
2/16 is tomorrow
he's like, OH I got distracted 2/23
& I almost said UMMM
do you REALLY
THINK
THAT
is in ANY WAY realistic
to EVEN pencil in
BUT
there was no REASON to be a b*tch
BUT
as I predicted
he's NOT
LEAVING his sister
who just had
some kind of health crisis
RIGHT
BEFORE
Xmas
NO one in the CONSORTIUM
was willing to take my bet
& if I'd WALKED down
to his office
& EXPLAINED the last few months to that security guard -- who I think is named Michael
I'm confident he would not have taken it either
& NOW
I'm having thoughts like
I don't want to spend
the first thirty minutes of my session
having him catch me up
& THEN
I don't know if it is even worth it
to try & catch him up
I feel like I've come to far
& not even SURE
I can remember who I was then
SOMETHING
about the wording of his text
put me off a little
it was like hey
hope you're hanging in there
(then the stuff I knew about the sister)
merry christmas
I'll be back in town 1/3
& I'll text you
a day you can come in
there's nothing specifically BAD about it
BUT
it's bugging me
