RAGE to my mother
I don't know if that's good or not
BUT
I'm just KINDA letting whatever comes up
come up
BUT
she's acting weird
she just wants to sleep
& she's avoiding
getting up
like she'll do whatever physical therapy
they MAKE her do
BUT
she doesn't want to
get wheeled down to the common area
& I'm LIKE
I don't care if you
WANT to interact or not
when you sleep all the time
you get dozy & disoriented
you NEED to FOCUS
you NEED to PULL it TOGETHER
& COMMIT
to your recovery
you aren't in a nursing home
you are in a skilled nursing facility to REHAB
do you want to end your life the way
shirley did
if you don't LOOK at me
RIGHT NOW
& SAY something
that makes me
BELIEVE
that you are committed to fighting for your
RECOVERY
I'm going to turn on the TV and leave it on when I leave
she was not convincing
as I walked out of the room
I'm LIKE
I can't make you
STAY AWAKE
BUT
I CAN
make it harder to sleep
I went out and talked to her nurse
we had talked already
don't let her give you any crap
she was living alone
she was driving herself around
playing with her little stock market stuff
she's in some kinda FUNK
& when she just sleeps
she gets loopy
& seems
incoherent
she NEEDS to interact
she NEEDS to move around
if you can get her to go eat in the common area
THAT would be GREAT
I'm f*CKing exhausted
& I kinda want to
THRASH her
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶
I really need to sleep
I'm not going
the weekend
I NEED
to decompress
