popping up at odd moments
these are the days of miracle and wonder
this is the long distance call
the way the camera
follows us in slo-mo
the way it looks to us all
the way we look to
a distant constellation
that's dying in the corner of the sky
these are the days of miracle and wonder
don't cry baby
don't cry
don't cry
don't cry
which could be THOSE lyrics
OR
something from that TIME
OR
I don't know
BUT
I'm not
MAD
at it
&
edelweiss
which could be
multiple things, but MIGHT be
from my childhood
when my mom picked me up for every other thursday visitation
we ALWAYS
went to memorial city mall
in the mall was this
cuckoo clock place -- I can't remember what it was called -- and they had this music box
it was red -- maybe leather
& it had -- maybe julie andrews -- twirling
to edelweiss
& I loved it
& went to visit it
every other thursday
& my mom was working it pretty hard -- maybe
trying to get me to the point where -- maybe
I would leave my dad -- maybe
SO
NOW
when I hear the song
I keep trying to remember
WHAT she DID
when we went to visit it
& it had been
SOLD
& it was GONE
& I cried and SOBBED
spoiler alert -- SHE had bought it for me for Xmas
I don't think she JUST said
OH LOOK
don't cry
I got it for you
HERE ya go
I don't think she -- in fact I'm almost positive
she did not -- WAIT to surprise me at XMAS
I think -- but I'm not positive
she let me CRY
then grieve
then
probably
-- got sick of hearing about it
and TOLD me
BUT
for some reason
my brain either thinks the details are important
OR
it wants me to tell you about
the music box
OR
the story*
*except I'm not sure of the story, so then it loops back
