Thursday, December 11, 2025

the extra sleep doesn't seem to have fixed me

I slept twelve hours 
I dreamed a BUNCH of stuff I can't remember 
although I DID have one dream
where I was taking a college 
class -- maybe I had taken it before 

MAYBE 
I was checking to see if I still had
the mental capacity 
OR
SOMETHING 
BUT 
there was a guy there
maybe it was you
& we were discussing the paper
& it was due in like six days

& we were like
maybe we should start on it -- ha ha

& then the professor 
came up to me
& wanted me to make some other student 
SEE something 

he opened the door 
there was a guy
sitting at the end of a long table full of people 
& he had like a jewelry making set up
& he had this case set up
that blocked him off
from the other people 

it was LARGELY glass
or possibly plexiglass 
SO 
it was SEE-THROUGH

& the prof could not explain it 
in a way that this guy
could SEE it

BUT 
for some reason 
I just pointed things out
in relation to 
people 
& he got it right away 

I don't know what that means 

& I'm EXTREMELY EMOTIONAL 
I'm not sure WHY
maybe just
overwrought 
BUT 
I saw two sad cat videos 
& my little monster 
stratched me

& I'm done
I'm having to work to hold back tears
MAYBE 
I should JUST 
CRY

I'm a wreck