I FEEL like

I'm getting CLOSE

(although I am unable to further qualify)

to a *

I think I am either WRITING or

SPEAKING

as the primary DELIVERY 

I NEED to NAIL down the MESSAGE**

VISUAL art obviously has SOME roll

BUT

it might be BRAIN exercise

OR

it MIGHT be important

ALL these interactions with PEOPLE

I felt like it was an IMPORTANT step

BUT

there's a way

I feel like

meh

SO

there's a way in which it was a like

PLACEHOLDER

it's training for human interaction

NOT necessarily like

the END GOAL

I think we ALL knew that

BUT

I also THINK

this is a thing I'm INVENTING

I THINK I have to make things BETTER

and I'm NOT sure

I think I have to give a message

and I don't think I can do that with painting

OR

unless I was doing children's books

THAT is still on the TABLE

BUT

(to be continued)

*ALSO unable to further qualify 

**ALTHOUGH that's really more complicated than how that sounds because 1) message like MISSION 2) implementation of MISSION 3) steps, $, blah blah