Saturday, January 10, 2026

today

I went to see my mom today
& I feel like I did pretty well
I notice
I'm still LIKE reading what I think she WANTS 
at least on some level

because I'm walking out to my car
& I'm saying to myself 
I'm sorry you WANT 
me to act like
you are my sweet dear old mother

for that to happen 
you need to have been SWEET and DEAR

whatever 
I didn't react


I decided 
I don't like the rouille d'ancre in that pen either 
& I was LIKE 
why don't you 
TRY
the ink it came with 

& I'm LIKE 
BUT 
it's all SHIMMER -Y 
& it's gunk up the pen

it is the ink it CAME with 
SO
I tried it
&
it's beautiful 

it's a little MUCH but it's beautiful 
SO
I don't know what I think about it