with a guy I used to work with
& he was saying that if I wanted friends
I needed to be more open
I was living in my car
which was my old Buick
with kind of a box built around it
I was digging through the back seat
trying to find some pants
BECAUSE
I was wearing a long shirt
that kinda barely covered my butt
& we were going to
an amusement park
there was also
BEFORE that
some small town party
at a lodge or something & I think there was important information
BUT
I don't remember
at the park there was a machine
where hot dogs were swimming
& then you pulled it out
& SOMEHOW
it was the best hot dog ever
which didn't make any sense & we talked about how it didn't
then we met up with some girl I knew
who was really happy that I was OUT doing things with people
& who thought my car house was cool
BUT
I didn't really understand
WHY
for either of those things
there was also a part
MAYBE before any of that
I was working for starbucks
& I called headquarters
& I was hesitant about what I was calling about
I KNEW, I think
BUT
I wasn't articulating it fast enough
& they're LIKE
you must be calling in the numbers
& I'm LIKE
OH
I just started BACK
after years
I don't have the numbers handy
I'm gonna have to call you back
I wish I could remember more of the lodge
I think it was LIKE a holiday celebration or something
musicians, and writers, creatives
& we were all running into each other
& KINDA catching up
I think there was a group dinner
& the showing
of someone's
MOVIE
that I hadn't seen yet
they were all pretty nice vignettes
even the Starbucks one
although
I can't remember why that one was so nice
I think it was KINDA
in a beautiful resort area
& MAYBE
some people I miss were there
NONE of it
was as VISUALLY interesting as the
BLUE house
& NONE of it
was as WONDERFUL as you holding ME
& I'm SURE there was MORE I can't remember
BUT
it was ALL pretty good
& I feel CALMER than when I went to sleep
BUT
it was at least sixteen hours of sleep
