the ones I remember
I was out
in MAYBE a restaurant or club or something
when I got there
& on the stairs
& downstairs
people kept finding me
& telling me
jason really needed me to help
FUND his FILM
jason had been sending DMs that I'm no longer opening because I don't trust him not to trigger me or make things somehow worse
I also
had maybe offended someone
by saying something
& now I had to go to some
MATH CLASS
or something
& I got somebody to show me
HOW to get there
the shortcut
involved running across these
FIELDS
full of
I want to say
FOODSTUFFS
I kept being distracted by the
BEAUTIFUL COLOR CONTRASTS
light & dark
GREEN
PURPLE
then I woke up
I'm LIKE
okay
you need to call your mom
& remind her to call her apartments and get her
rent amount*
*which varies because of fees or services or something I can't remember & never really understood
SO
she can write a check
SO
I can pick it up and take it there
SO
her rent is paid
you can drive your car
which takes care of driving your car
what I need you to do
is plan a FUN thing
you can DO
while you're OUT
& NOT
just buying something
doing something
I've been UP like forty-five minutes
& I haven't thought of anything
that seems
even remotely fun
I wanted to think of it
BEFORE
getting out of bed
it was a complete blank
I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart
I'm maybe struggling a little
