2 nite chat: 7:16

it's been almost four months
and
i feel like i may have been
like three different people in that time
i left the house today
it is always weird now
when i leave the house

there was a time
when i thought
maybe i couldn't live where there was nothing to do
i think we have effectively debunked that
i mean
i haven't gone for a walk, even
since the last time i talked about doing that
that was march
or
maybe early april
i've been to the grocery store a few times
but
that is so close
it almost doesn't feel like leaving the house
i have now dipped below the quarter mark
on the first quarter of a tank of gasoline
in four months

i normally use about a tank of gas a month
which still isn't very much
i drive
when i don't go on the road
not more than three thousand miles a year
and that's been pretty consistent
except
when i got this car
like about seven years ago
i drove about a thousand miles the first month

you were talking about liking to buy things in person
i have bought things in person
but
not much
like clothes, for example
a lot of people think they can't but clothes
without trying them on
i don't think i've actually tried clothes on
for maybe five years
i took rough measurements
and i know chest needs to be at least x
and low hip needs to be at least y
and i know (basically) what looks good on me
and it can be sent back if it doesn't
i much prefer shopping that way
i have always hated to have to get undressed
and dressed and undressed and dressed
in dressing rooms especially
unless
it is a very fancy place
sometimes then it's fun

now
food delivery
either imperfect produce
or restaurant delivery
would be something i'd miss

but
depending on my circumstances
it might not be that big of a deal

as long as i've got mail delivery
and internet
i can probably get by
oh
and money
probably still need that