BECAUSE
it just SOUNDS bad
BUT
I can't get it OUT
of my HEAD
I was THINKING about
CARNEY justice
when I was VERY little
I didn't WANT anything to do with her
there COULD have been
MULTIPLE reasons
she MORE or less
ABANDONED me
I was SURE my daddy was gonna do that TOO
& I would MAKE him TALK to me
through the door
sometimes
when he was in the bathroom for any
length of time
because I was CERTAIN he was
gonna JUMP out the
WINDOW
there was a window in the bathroom
a HIGHER UP window
BUT
I think he could still
JUMP out
RUN
he wasn't even
THERE all that MUCH
he would leave
BEFORE
I woke up
& I wouldn't go to BED until he came HOME
which was sometime before the
END of the
JOHNNY CARSON show
was that the
TONIGHT show
THEN we would go to the
PARK and SWING
& recite things
THEN
I would sleep
he wasn't WORKING that WHOLE
SIXTEENish hours a day
he was
SHOPPING for a NEW mommy
EVENTUALLY
he FOUND one
THEN
my original mommy
RE-SURFACED
(continuing)
