I'm pretty wrecked
& I tried to do
LIKE
a tarot debrief
& I still feel like I'm not getting it
LIKE
I KNOW
there's a WAY
THAT made me CLOSER to people
BECAUSE
what those people
we're DOING
I think to me my own opinion
was saying
I've lived here my entire life
THIS is LIKE
SOME
CIVIC sh*t I don't USUALLY
ENGAGE with
BECAUSE
we're all SPECIALIZED & this is not my THING
BUT
it has reached a LEVEL
that I have said
to myself
THIS
is a RESPONSIBILITY
&even though I'm not really COMFORTABLE with it
&even though it's houston in summer
&even though it's supposed to rain
&even though I don't know what to expect
I am HERE because
WHAT the F*CK
it made me CRY
& walking down the
MIDDLE of the STREET
is DIFFERENT
and I was in a parade downtown
when I was a kid
I was in the
st. patrick's day
& THIS was BETTER
there was NO crowd
MOSTLY
if you were THERE for it
you were IN it
BUT
not entirely
a FEW blocks in
there was a guy encouraging the
CHANT with
AIR HORN
accompaniment
when I passed him
HE was HOLDING up
a SIGN that
SAID
F*CK netanyahu
& THAT
MIGHT have been
WHEN
I STARTED
CRYING
because what he wanted to say
was IN SOLIDARITY, ya KNOW
there were LOTS of older people
on the sides with
SIGNS
participating
SOLIDARITY
there were people watching
from the high terrace patios of downtown hotels
from restaurants and bars
in the center of the street
the buildingscape
opened up
SURREAL
& it reminded me --
a little -- of CHICAGO
MAYBE
my SHADOW
is
that I connect
with people
in an ABSTRACT way
that doesn't
CONNECT
to them
at all
& in the debrief
it's telling me
EMPRESS
KNOWER of BIRDS
HIGH PRIESTESS
& I'm LIKE
OK universe, have you got something to TELL me
EIGHT of rivers
FOUR of stones
I THINK it might be the NUMBERS
BUT jesus WTF
I keep SAYING
ya KNOW
ORWELL was writing about 1948
he wasn't WRITING
ABOUT
the future
I graduated highschool in eighty four
my numerology is eight
this deck has slightly different meanings for those two specific cards, and I will read them NOW
