I probably traumatized jason
after I posted on insta
jason slid in my dms
& was all LIKE
hey
ajax is going to be visiting deb
WHO he thinks is a SUPER HERO
because I have worked HARD to boost her
would you be willing to
pick him up from there and take him to the Starbucks you managed
& tell him about
STARBUCKS
he loves it & wants to work there
blah blah blah
JASON means HEALER
& I'm LIKE
I am willing to NOT talk about deborah
BUT
I am UNWILLING to LIE about
HOW she systematically tried to BREAK ME
I am UNWILLING to have
ANY contact with her
I have not been in THAT Starbucks since I left there nineteen years ago
I don't know ANYTHING about
what it's like to work there
NOW
& I am UNWILLING to
ENDORSE it as a place to work
I CAN tell him about what it's been like
to live as a non-binary person for 58 years
I am in therapy and not really doing that well emotionally or psychologically
& the reason I have been
MOSTLY not responding to you
is that
EVERY way you come at me
TRIGGERS me
if he is interested in meeting with me
please have him contact me
because my attempt to contact him
KINDA gave me the impression
that he wasn't that interested
which is fine either way
WHO are you trying to HEAL
SO
I'm a b*tch
BUT
I FEEL like we KNEW that
I wasn't trying to be
OBJECTIONABLE
BUT
he doesn't KNOW me
WHY is he trying to
get me to
spend time with his kid
I could be
DANGEROUS
