& I would
REALLY love to
EXPLAIN
BUT
I don't even KNOW
I'm outta
WACK
SOMEHOW
I think
I'm restraining myself from ASKING
things LIKE
does that make me a psychopath
if I don't love my mother
WHAT exactly
is my
PROBLEM
am I just
BUTThurt that my mom
doesn't REALLY
FEEL that MUCH
FOR me
WHAT is the THING
the MAGIC
that makes it
SO
I've LEARNED whatever I'm supposed to LEARN
I've HEALED, ya know
& I just keep
NOT knowing
I KNOW
I can FEEL it
THAT I'm
GETTING close to SOMETHING
BUT
it's REALLY uncomfortable
AND
I'm FEELING
SOME
KINDA
WAY
it's CLOSE to
ANGRY
I'm IN it
& I'm SORRY I'm not being
COMMUNICATIVE
OR
MAKING SENSE
