there's some WAY in which
I have changed
there are ALSO some WAYS in which
I am STRETCHING out mentally
SO I keep like second guessing MYSELF
it's probably NOT fair to EXPECT
you to just ROLL with it
I am wearing MYSELF out
& I can SEE now
how this is on TOP of like a couple years now
I can't STOP doing what I'm doing
I'm just ACKNOWLEDGING
that I SEE how difficult I'm being
& I WISH I could just FIX it
UNLESS what's REALLY happening
is that I'm BECOMING something
in THAT case
I don't want to FIX it
AND
THAT SOUNDS a little CRAZY
which I don't love
