I'm ANGRY with MYSELF
& at the SAME time
I feel very like extra SOMETHING
difficult to put into WORDS
APPRECIATIVE maybe
LIKE
I FEEL like
I've been EXTRA
& I'm LUCKY that you're just not all like
f*CK this sh*t
I don't really think I've been
any CRAZIER that usual
BUT
I guess we've entered the area
where I'm really not OK with myself
& I know I've alluded to it
surely this is not the complete surprise
I'm behaving like it is
BUT
MAYBE
I should just
CALM the f*CK down
this is a LOT of ground I've been covering
