is not like not able to decide things
although
I'm NOT making a very good case
for my decisiveness
I WANT stuff
& even if I don't want it
I still want it
& if you don't WANT it
that's sad
& if you DO
then that's terrifying
NOT because I don't want you to
BUT because I DO
& NOW I feel like
I've f*CKed everything up somehow
which seems EXTREME
