a CONCEPT
& I was sketching out
what I had THUS FAR
with my therapist
& he couldn't
REALLY
follow
because
I was APPARENTLY
doing it BACKWARDS
I was talking about HOW
when I didn't YET know EXACTLY
WHAT
BUT
I don't see THAT as a problem
the IDEA is
OR RATHER was
because TONIGHT I had
a MODIFICATION
is that I GO somewhere
SO I can be like IMMERSED
& do that THING
I learned I love to do
during the pandemic
be AWAKE for like twenty two hours
but in THIS case
working on WRITING something
NOW
for me the question is
WHAT sort of writing am I doing
which is PERHAPS important to KNOW
BEFORE you START
& FOR SURE
if you were doing the SIX WEEKS
I was ORIGINALLY thinking
it's just WAY too BIG
of an expenditure
& I think this NEW STYLE has
MERIT*
BUT
it doesn't lend itself to a novel, say
ALTHOUGH it MIGHT
if it were some MODIFIED epistolary form
WHICH
is what I have been LEANING towards
BUT
then TONIGHT I thought of
JOSHUA TREE
NOW even if they would LET me
I could NOT live in a tent for SIX WEEKS
well, I MEAN
I guess
I COULD if than was what I
HAD to do
NOT VOLUNTARILY
LIKE ten days
MAYBE
AND
I think THAT
HAS PROMISE
although OBVIOUSLY
it is NOT
a fully fleshed out idea
BUT it might
end up being like ON ANOTHER PLANET
OR it might
end up being some SPIRITUAL thing
BUT
that SEEMS
SPECIFIC enough
to be ACTIONABLE
at LEAST for PLANNING purposes
*I want to continue with it
