I wanna talk about THERAPY
& I would DEARLY love
to tell YOU
BUT
I cannot RISK it
maybe I'll figure out a way
WHAT I am gonna TALK about
is like
what I LEARNED today
I don't REALLY understand WHY
BUT when I say THINGS
in therapy
I HEAR them
or something
SOMETIMES it's like when you TEACH
something it somehow
BECOMES clearer
because you had to EXPLAIN it
ANYWAY this week
I was trying to explain MYSELF
I was trying to explain something
& the explanation
led me to
that ROAD TRIP
where I drove to VEGAS
I stopped in SEDONA
I was in a shop
& the lady
told me a BLIZZARD was coming
I had to get to FLAGSTAFF
she gave me DIRECTIONS to the cleared highway
it wound UP through the mountains
& the POSSIBILITY
of just
like
sliding OFF the side
seemed PRETTY real
you must have been TERRIFIED
he says
the THING about me is
I'm kinda SPIRITUAL
so there's a WAY in which
I'm like
if I slide off a mountain in SEDONA
MAYBE
that's just what was MEANT to happen
& although
I MIGHT get semi crippling ANXIETY
like leaving the HOUSE
if there is like
an ACTUAL crisis
I'm CALM
it was BEAUTIFUL
(to be continued)
