I LOVE you VERY much
I'm NOT sure
I'm making MORE sense
as I go along
if I have SEEMED negative
or DISCOURAGING
I DON'T think those are accurate READINGS
I'm working through some STUFF
BUT
one thing I'm REALIZING
I would have TRIED to get you NOT to
break my brain
& you were ABSOLUTELY supposed to
SUPER IMPORTANT
f*CKing FORETOLD supposed to
SO
there's a WAY in which I don't WANT to
CHANGE how you do ANYTHING
& there's ALSO a way
in which I FEEL like
I AM supposed to HELP you know
I'm AFRAID that I will BREAK us
with something I SAY or DO
BUT could I REALLY
COULD you
I THINK the fact that you were
behind me somewhere on the BUS
is a difficult interpretation to pin down
BUT
you WERE ON the BUS
I was in COMMUNICATION with you
& neither of THOSE seem to indicate
LOSING you
which is what I'm MOST afraid of
I'm just USED to always
I REALLY have TRIED not to use this analogy
it's like I'm sookie stackhouse
I'm used to reading minds
& suddenly
there's this EXCITING vampire
whose mind I CAN'T read
& if you've ever noticed
what a THING vampires were for me
growing up
you'll understand why
this realization
conceptualization is KINDA HOT
so now that's kinda activated again
& as your FRIEND
I'm STILL not sure what to tell you
about me
