I'm really tired 

I hope you had a 

beautiful 

day

sweetheart 💋 

I gotta go to sleep 

I have to go to that party tomorrow 

gotta get up

EARLY-ish

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

goodnight 🫶

👾🫚

❤️

here's this one ALMOST dry

worked on this one some more 

OK

it's STILL WET

& it doesn't SEEM possible 

that it 

COULD 

be finished 

BUT 

I low-key 

LOVE this

I decided 

that buckwheat bread 

is ALMOST 

a muffin 

I gotta go to the party

on SUNDAY 

they want me to bring 

FOOD 

let's make 

MUFFINS 

I really 

LIKE them

BUT normal humans will NOT 

it's SUPER dense

if I threw this at my cat

he MIGHT die*

*probably not 

buckwheat 

chia seeds

acai

golden berries

sweetened with apple sauce 

+ stevia

it's not a muffin 

I have 

donut shape

or BAR

it's ALMOST 

I forgot 

WHAT

I LOVE you VERY much 💋 

goodnight 🫶 

👾🫚

❤️

AND

in FAIRNESS 

that conversation does make 

MORE 

sense of you 

KNOW 

context

SO

you want them to

& you KNOW 

they 

WON'T 

so you're not going to tell them

when she DIES 

& then

WON'T they

be SORRY 

maybe 

my mom 

told me she asked

at least meredith 

does anyone want to hear about shirley 

why do you say it like that 

why are you asking

if they to hear

what they

can ONLY assume is not good news

WHY don't you just 

TELL them*

*this is streamlining the conversation some

I won't tell them 

when she DIES either 

Hey

hugh Jackman

IS

attached to

SOME monkey thing

I didn't know that 

I was in a meeting 

in the 

EARLY 2000s

&

they wanted some kind of

MUSICAL

answer

WARREN ZEVON

I said

&

the WHOLE ROOM 

shook their heads and said

WHO?!

BUT 

who will play

PHIL

you never go full

CHIMPANZEE*

*as the old hollywood saying goes

so WHO will

BREAK with tradition 

and bring

PHIL

to the 

BIG screen

the RUMORS

have hugh Jackman attached

BUT 

NO CONFIRMATION as yet

PRIMATE paparazzi 

in the meantime 

have

TROOPED

in CHELSEA 

sh*t

I gotta go to sleep 

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 🫶

👾🫚

❤️

I can't really tell

if my CAT

is feeling sicker

he gives 

MIXED signals

he's been really

SWEET*

*so he must be dying, right

BUT 

MAYBE 

I'm just a 

BETTER vibration 

& he's responding to THAT 

he doesn't have that

SCRAGGLY oily fur look

that says

not doing well 

he has the

FLOOFIEST

COAT

he's EVER had

he's absorbing nutrients

for SURE 

I MIGHT get 

myself 

the neck cream from the line

immortelle

it's not SUPER expensive 

& my neck seems to need

something EXTRA

idk, though

I might talk myself out of it 

I had to complete

my ipsy

& I LOOK through 

there called 

ADD ONS

the have a LOT of BRANDS

& the IDEA

is LIKE 

I need a face OIL

they have 

I'll give an example

I'm CURRENTLY using

BLUNT

it's LIKE maybe 

seventy five, eighty dollars regular 

BUT 

I don't know who they are 

I'm not going to their

WEBSITE 

I see it in add ONS

for like twelve dollars

this is the BEST smelling

STUFF ever

it's like

BLUE TANSY & black seed oil

with cbd 

BUT 

I FOUND this new one

I'm all EXCITED about 

it has a BUNCH of oils

that my SKIN really likes

I can ALMOST 

NEVER

find carrot seed oil

& the bottle is

LIKE 

PERFECT

& the company is cool

I've also found

an EYE CREAM 

I MEAN 

I HAD one

BUT 

it was REALLY too much

I've got this need for

EYEmoliance

BUT 

don't break me out

my SKIN congests

& it probably wouldn't be noticeable 

to other people 

BUT 

I am HYPER AWARE of it 

SO

I have SPECIFIC needs

& this new one 

SEEMS

to be the best thing ever

it soaks right in

in a textural way that

REMINDED me

of l'occitane

LIKE, duh, shea butter*

*famous for shea butter is l'occitane 

AND

when I got to thinking about l'occitane 

it reminded me of 

this STUFF they don't f*CKing make anymore

they used to make this dry oil

it was a while ago

it was a little spendy

BUT 

it lasted a long time

the line was very successful 

so they PLEXED

& STRATIFIED

the product I liked became

two different things

MAYBE 

the really expensive one is the same

BUT I don't think it is

AND

I realized the

STRONG EMOTIONS 

I have about

SKINCARE

I have been 

ALL OVER the place

in my HEAD 

&

I THINK the important thing is 

I GOTTA get the HANG

of the perspective shifter

I was calling it

SOMETHING 

maybe chronos

THAT'S what I'm coming up with 

BUT 

that seems wrong 

it's WEIRD 

it's got this other ASPECT 

or I'm seeing them as one CONNECTED thing 

the DIFFERENT perspectives 

I have ABOUT all the

DIFFERENT 

THINGS

I do and like and etc

the reason they don't 

seamlessly stich TOGETHER 

it's tied up

in PERSPECTIVES 

AND

when I go from 

thing to THING 

it FEELS 

disJOINTed

THINGS

LOOK

DIFFERENT 

& my feelings are sometimes 

DIFFERENT 

in a way that feels 

CHOPPY

I don't know what it MEANS exactly

& I would be 

HIGHLY

surprised 

if this makes any sense 

I THINK 

people are not 100% 

CONSISTENT 

when an aspect of something 

BOTHERS you

it brings

FRESH

to MIND the bother

& when the aspects you enjoy

HAPPY fresh to MIND

BUT 

when my BRAIN is doing 

PERSPECTIVE

SHIFT

I guess I notice 

A KIND of

MURMURATION

my CAT

he was doing SOMETHING 

I REALLY DIDN'T WANT 

him to do

I SAID 

& then I was all LIKE 

WHERE did

THAT come from

DON'T be a PILL 

I've got to figure out 

WHERE that

ORIGINATES

my MOM used to 

SAY that 

to me

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 🫶

👾🫚

❤️

AND

I gave myself a reading 

TONIGHT 

& it EXACTLY answered me

AND

I am ON TRACK

DRAGONFLY is the through-line

to the

FOUNDATION 

ACE of SWORDS 

is what you use that perserverent troublesome 

WILL 

to STRUGGLE 

for

TURN a SHADOW 

don't just LOOK IT in the FACE

queen of EARTH

AND

high PRIESTESS+ace of WANDS

you HAVE the

SPIRIT

in you and you need to

LIGHT 

that sh*t 

UP

bottom of the deck

Knight of CUPS

FOOL

MOON

new bottom of the deck

STRENGTH 

NEW TOP 

of the deck

THREE 

of EARTH

which has been

OUR CARD

since 2007, at least

I THINK 

I have a balance

USUALLY 

between 

the AUD

& the HD

AND

I THINK 

it's a little out of balance

the whole THERAPY aspect 

shifts me a little 

too

LEFT BRAIN

AND

I just NOW realized 

THAT'S HOW 

we've been conceptualizing this sh*t largely

the THINKER rational part

ANALYZES

&

RIGHT BRAIN 

is the

CREATIVE psychic-y part

VISUALIZES

but also READS the SIGNS

AND

all that is a little 

OVER SIMPLIFIED 

BUT 

the TAROT reading in kerville 

was an important LESSON 

it is only with the heart

one can see rightly

from the three of swords

the guides had to

f*CKing mock you with

if she only had a brain

because you couldn't read the tarot

for yourself 

&

like when your mom tried to help you

with your algebra homework 

you got so frustrated 

it SHOOK the

LEARNING 

from your OWN tree

I've had a headache 

& I was pretty pretty brain-goggy

BUT 

I have done 

GREAT WORK tonight

THANK YOU 

for breaking my brain

you didn't mean to

& you're probably not super happy about it 

AND

it WAS FORE TOLD 

so you probably didn't have a choice 

BUT 

the NEW ONE 

I'm building 

is so 

MUCH 

better