I almost FELT 

LIKE 

I was standing NEXT to you 

SO

MANY 

HAPPY 

FEELS 

🫶🫶🫶

I'm sorry 

I should have talked 

BEFORE now 

I've just been in this 

LIKE 

DIFFUSE mind state 

is the best way I can describe it 

I was thinking about you 

you were in my mind

with me

while I was floating in the everything everywhere 

& the WORDS

aren't 

SO MUCH HOW 

your thinking 

there's this KINDA 

ALL the THINGS 

ARE TRUE

BUT 

WORDS

have to CHOOSE 

SO

anyway 

I'm SORRY 

I didn't KNOW I was

GONNA 

or I would have 

WARNED you 

it was GOOD though 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

I think I'm gonna try to sleep 🫶

❤️👾🫚🍀☕🐦☁️❤️

ya know what though

THAT is 

SWEET

that little slice of life

the SANDWICH is

HYPERBOLE 

appreciable as ART in it's own right 

FIVE dollar TIPS--  poetry

❤️

BUT 

I THINK 

I'm NOT trying to be VEGAN

I am 

NOT really 

DOING 

a SYSTEM 

I'm BUILDING a 

SYSTEM 

AND

the PROTEIN thing

SEEMS to have 

PRODUCED

RESULTS*

*although my quick and dirty approach of throwing multiple variables into the mix never really give completely uncomplicated results

CHLORELLA 

for example, has PROTEIN, but also has

DETOXING 

& GROWTH HORMONE 

SO

if I feel like I've had 

SOME positive 

CHANGE

I couldn't REALLY say it was the protein, ya know 

I KINDA think

my personal interpretation 

PROTEIN is important 

BUT 

high ANIMAL based

is not how

I prefer 

to 

EAT

I ENJOY 

a meat FEAST

BUT 

not CONSTANTLY 

I've been leaning HARD into LENTILS 

but I GOTTA do SOMETHING else 

OR I'll go OFF em

TEMPEH 

REPRESENTS

SOMETHING to me

MAYBE 

it's that it

INTERSECTS 

MULTIPLE 

INTERESTS 

I WANT to 

LOVE 

this STUFF 

BUT 

HONESTLY 

I have a hard time getting past the look of it 

it's the kind of thing that happens 

SOMETIMES 

when you encounter something with no childhood

ANALOG 

I MEAN

if you can

EAT

cheese...

I LOVE cheese

SO I understand that you DON'T 

READ

the original 

FOOD STUFFS 

as spoiled

because 

THEY aren't--  they have transformed 

into ANOTHER 

SUBSTANCE

which you

JUST

RECOGNIZE if you GREW UP with it

BUT 

you can MAKE tempeh 

I THINK renewable

LIKE sourdough 

FOREVER

with a variety

of BEANS

& GRAINS

SO

THAT 

FITS into

EVEN more

I don't know if any of this makes any sense 

it's LIKE 

TEMPEH is where it's AT

YOU are

HOLDING the PARTY

HOSTAGE 

with your pig-headed refusal to get behind TEMPEH 

I MEAN 

that's what it was like 

when I saw it

in the

imperfect produce shopping

ACTUALLY 

it's NOT TRUE that I don't have any 

STRATEGY wins 

I reminded myself 

I SPECIFICALLY 

FOCUSED 

on the

PROBLEM 

FORMULATED a hypothesis 

& ACHIEVED

the 

GOAL

BUT 

THEN it was 

JUST you

TELLING yourself 

which

AM I to UNDERSTAND 

hasn't happened 

BEFORE 

HOW 

MANY 

times 

ALSO 

I'm starting to 

SLOW ROLL through the PERSPECTIVES 

AND

I was watching 

EZRA KLEIN 

who I'm SURE I've seen 

BUT 

SOMEHOW 

has never really been on my radar

& he was interviewing 

a journalist 

who has

COVERED 

el ON

for years

I was

SURPRISED 

how very little of the information 

was NEW but the picture 

filled IN

avian flu

put me right off 

EGGS

especially since 

we maybe 

aren't 

TRACKING that kind of sh*t anymore 

ALSO

I've been kinda slipping

on the protein

& had all that

WEIRD 

hormonal crap

BUT 

although I 

LOVE tofu

I've ALWAYS been

KINDA 

meh

about tempeh

BUT 

this is lightlife 

which makes my favorite 

VEGAN hotdog is I was

HOPEFUL 

I browned it in a pan

with MCT C-8

which is my new general all purpose oil

THEN 

I made a sauce

ACID LEAGUE pho broth

a dash of toasted sesame oil

a dash of HEB steak sauce

which is similar to A1

a nice thick dusting of

NUTRITIONAL yeast 

a dash of harissa

& enough boiling water

to get everything 

TOO WET

ADDED brown rice 

turned up heat

to reduce 

the volume of water

it was okay

not amazing 

I thought about adding

peanut butter 

to make it more of a sambal

BUT 

I thought the texture would be a problem 

MIGHT get some peanut butter

POWDER

& try THAT

MIGHT 

try to find some

INDONESIAN 

tempeh recipes

I'm in a little bit of a funk

RIGHT NOW 

BUT 

I did the big

CHORE

I've been fighting myself on

& I feel pretty good about that

ALTHOUGH 

I don't have any strategy wins

I just said

ENOUGH 

we're DOING THIS 

I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 🫶🫶🫶

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY 

MOON 🫶

👾🫚🍀☕🐦☁️

THAT 

was a FIESTY

MAILBAG

I didn't

KNOW it was

CALLED a 

ZIPPER MERGE 

BUT 

I thought 

EVERYONE knew

THAT 

   is

THE WAY

OK

I FEEL like 

I got a 

HANDLE 

on prop bets

they

CAN BE

any kind of thing at all

OTHER than 

the SCORE 

BUT 

they can 

ALSO be

VERY

data dense analysis 

of the relative

STRENGTH

WEAKNESS

& probabilities

of given things

THOSE 

TWO things 

should NOT have the same name 

I am slightly familiar 

with the concept 

of making

BETS

on KINDA random 

THINGS

BUT 

what MA was

DESCRIBING was

NOT 

THAT

what he was describing 

SOUNDED like

he was

USING 

ONE

BET

to PROP UP

the OTHER 

BUT 

I was pretty sure 

it was short for

SOMETHING 

proposition?

I have to look it up

he had

TALKED

about it before 

BUT 

I don't 

FOLLOW basketball 

& it wasn't 

IMMEDIATELY 

APPARENT

to me

HOW 

IMPORTANT 

this guy was

NOW 

I've got a clearer 

PICTURE 

BUT 

STILL not THAT 

CLEAR

but MORE AWARE 

the problem with that

I learn by making this interconnected thing-y

BASEBALL 

I have

ENOUGH information 

that I can put

loose pieces where they go

BASKETBALL 

I don't have 

ENOUGH 

SO 

sometimes the pieces

get lost

BUT 

they've built a sort of

PASSING of the

GUARD

narrative -- I'll probably remember LeBron in his CAR talking to his WIFE 

BUT 

in order to 

KNOW 

what he said

I need more information on LeBron 

I have NO IDEA what he thinks

I had to stop 

in the midst of that 

to tell you

I was listening to 

tim miller

who

I think I should NOT listen to 

he is pretty high anxiety 

& it's 

CATCHING 

BUT 

he MENTIONED doncic

on the politics 

SHOW

I don't remember what he said though

BUT 

I thought it was 

WEIRD 

BUT 

now I think I'm 

SEEing the

PATTERN

OK

GRANDPA

& his BIG BOX of STUFF 

chasing down

MELISSA 

is KINDA

adorable 

he could win me over yet

NO NO

HOLD UP

WHAT

was the

POINT

of

OFFENSE

he comes at it

KINDA

as though

HAHA

BUT 

it turned

SO

is it that she WASTED money

is it that he doesn't 

APPROVE

of buying things

for HOLIDAYS 

& with the

DOG

it's TOO MUCH 

I MEAN 

she got marketed

a cute thing

& she bought the dog a toy

the F*CKing

SALIENT question is 

DOES THIS ONE

MAKE NOISE

where is this

I'm UNCOMFORTABLE with GIVING 

the DOG

LOVE TRINKETS 

ENERGY 

coming from 

TONIGHT 

was an other one

I really 

WANTED 

to

SEE

I saw my mom today 

& I took in

a little 

TOO much news

SO

I'm gonna listen to 

TK

&

hope that

COOLS

me

down

my phone was out of battery 

& I've just been 

THINKING 

NOW 

my cat

wants to lay on me

& I might 

FALL ASLEEP 

I LOVE you VERY MOON 

I'll say now

just in case

👾🫚🍀

🫶☕🐦☁️

SEE

THERE it GOES 

AGAIN 

I KEEP 

FEELING you

TODAY

are you thinking about me

MORE than usual

OR

HARDER 

than usual

OR

is something else 

going on with me

that I'm 

mistaking 

for the

BODILY SENSATION 

that I associate with 

FEELING you 

THINKING 

about me

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

I'm gonna try to sleep 🫶

👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦🇨🇦🧲🧠

❤️❤️❤️

I didn't 

CONNECT 

in the

MAILBAG today

I didn't do

the stuff 

I was

GONNA

DO

I did

SOME 

of it

I have to figure out

URGENCY 

without stress

I don't want 

it 

to be

URGENCY 

I'm TRYING to REPLACE 

URGENCY 

I'm TRYING to 

FIND

SOMETHING 

that WORKS 

I just want

to self-sooth, maybe 

& only do what

HAS to be 

DONE

& I KINDA 

go back and forth

ABOUT 

whether I'm not ALLOWING myself

to REST

OR

I'm just making 

EXCUSES 

why am I not being 

PRODUCTIVE 

& I get

DISTRACTED 

AND

I SAW this THING

ABOUT 

INTER

generational

TRAUMA 

AND

I KINDA 

HATE

that

CONCEPT 

I ALSO 

HATE

the IDEA 

of BRINGING 

PAST

LIFE 

TRAUMA

come ON

it's 

TOO

MUCH

too HEAVY

I feel like

this

DRIFTed MORE than usual 

they WERE

STAPLES in my

LIFE 

I have replaced them with

NAPPING 

LOVINGLY 

WRAPPED 

in

FOIL

by

NIGEL

TOOTHPASTE CRISIS 

I am now using 

TWO toothpastes 

WELEDA SALT

& desert essence coconut

sometimes 

I use one

or the

other

and

sometimes 

I use both

at the

SAME

TIME

I'm gonna try to sleep 

goodnight sweetheart 💋

I LOVE you VERY much 🫶

👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦🇨🇦🧲🧠

❤️

AND

I'm not sure 

that didn't SOUND 

SOME KIND 

of WAY

he said the thing

at the end

NOT 

right after

AND

I sound 

WOUNDED

& THAT

WAS NOT 

what I was going for

I didn't 

MEAN 

oh MI of MY

mmmmMYpppotential

NOR

did I MEAN 

oh if ONLY blah blah blah

I'm NOT depressed 

I was trying to 

EXPLAIN 

I NEED

to figure out

ME

&

I

WANT

to FOCUS

on LIKE what am I gonna DO

HOW am I going to 

MAKE money

BUT 

I've GOT to 

GET the

SYSTEMS sorted

& I'm having trouble & I don't want to 

it's SO MUCH easier 

to SPIN in 

CIRCLES that you KNOW 

BUT 

he missed it 

OR

I didn't make myself clear 

& he was telling me to 

MAKE a

VISION board

BUT 

I think what happened 

(stay with me)

he said 

they wanted to have the

CEREMONY today 

we're having it

in a few weeks

at a time 

that makes it easier for family to travel

I said

that's good 

gives you a chance

to process

before 

you CELEBRATE her life

AND

HE LIT UP

& said

THANK YOU 

in a tone LIKE 

FINALLY 

SOMEONE gets it

& I suspect 

THAT is what

inspired

HIS 

YOU ARE SO*

*I forget the actual word he used because I read it as I have just become acutely aware of your wasted potential

anyway 

it was

WEIRD 

I LOVE you 

I'm not gonna lie

I'm 

a little bit 

FREAKED out 

I've been holding it

PRETTY 

CONVINCINGLY 

at bay 

&

I'm still 

LIKE 

OK

I did

talk about my stuff 

BUT 

I must have

SAID something 

WRONG 

because 

I'm not happy with where I ended up

I got to therapy 

BEFORE 

my therapist 

as it turns out

BUT 

I just thought there was a problem with the door 

I texted him

because I didn't want 

to just be standing in the hallway 

& have him be sitting in his office 

wondering where I was

BUT 

then he got off the

ELEVATOR 

he SEEMED off

SOMEHOW 

& then

when he went to unlock the door 

he kept 

MISSING 

the keyhole*

*although it was silver, round, and raised out from the door

he tried four times 

just scratching the door three quarters of an inch over to the right of the keyhole 

I'm LIKE*

*after we were in his office 

are you okay 

I don't even mean

EMOTIONALLY 

you seem 

OUT of SYNC

I'm on VALIUM 

your doctor told you you were safe to drive

well I DROVE 

he was pretty 

WRECKED

he repeated all his information lines

three times

while he was telling me about 

his mom & stuff

he's NOT okay 

I'm LIKE 

HEY 

you don't KNOW Elon, do you

because 

he seems to know a lot of people 

that seemed to confuse him

no no, I know you know who he is

I MEAN 

do you know him personally 

BECAUSE 

if you do

you need to tell him to 

REIN it the f*CK IN

NO no he's TOO RICH for me to know

it was

WEIRD 

the therapy today 

I LOVE you VERY much 

goodnight 

MOON 

💋🫶👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦🇨🇦🧲🧠❤️❤️❤️

we've been getting 

FOG

in the weather 

quite a bit

LATELY 

I wasn't sure 

WHAT

the wavy lines meant

at first

WHEN 

I drove out to

BAYBROOK for

the opening 

SHIFT

I drove, ALWAYS, through

FOG

but I don't believe 

it's COMMON 

in town

PUT

the MICE

in GIBBETS 

that's it

THAT

is the

QUOTE 

AWW

LITTLES ACTION 

out in the

WILD

DB

THAT

QUALITY 

they are a FINE company 

WE are 

PROUD

to be affiliated with them

I GET that

I was

SO

PROUD

of HEB

and it's a

CONCEPT 

I am

PARTICULARLY INTERESTED in 

the

NUANCES of

the

mailbag

is often a surprising

SOURCE of 

I'm not sure of the 

WORD*

*inspiration for analysis of tangential elements as touch points of reality between groups or generations-- jumping off points**

**I think this description is more limiting than I mean it to be

DON MacLean 

has personal meaning 

for me

it is

KINDA

special 

when

TK

HONORS

a song

that means something to you 

he's done that 

several times 

just since 

I've been listening again

I don't really 

UNDERSTAND 

PROP bets

OH

& MOCHA 

USUALLY means

a chocolate coffee combination 

I THINK 

because 

MOKKA

was

a major trade port

that traded

BOTH

COFFEE

& CHOCOLATE 

BUT 

I can't remember the 

SOURCE

of that information 

SO

POSSIBLY 

I'm WRONG 

BUT 

I'm pretty confident 

I AM

however 

CERTAIN 

that TODAY 

MOCHA

USUALLY means 

BOTH 

chocolate and coffee

I'm NOT 

SURE 

WHY

I felt like I had to go all into it

I FEEL like 

it's WEIRD that he seems 

CONFUSED about it 

BUT 

WHY

do I CARE

my therapist confirmed 

for tomorrow 

& MAYBE 

that's 

PART of my problem 

having missed

TWO weeks 

idk

there was a protest

yesterday 

people were

LEAVING 

when my mom and I were leaving the studio 

it must have been

on MAIN Street 

over by

the sam houston statue, maybe 

that's one of the 

TRADITIONAL places

for protest

HERE

it's by RICE

& the MED CENTER 

& the museums

it was

DEPORTATION protest

MOST people 

WRAPPED in MEXICAN flags

or waving them

POLICE 

we're stopping traffic 

to let the protesters cross

AGAINST the 

LIGHTS

I have been 

a little 

OFF

today

BUT 

I tried to 

MAINTAIN 

BUT 

then I saw on the grapevine 

that maybe there was

TAPE

turned out

there wasn't 

BUT 

CROSSTOWN BUS

story

& that flash of green

FILLED me UP

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

YOU are so beautiful to me

inside & out 

🫶🫶🫶

👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦🇨🇦

it is possible 

that I didn't make that painting 

BETTER

BUT 

either way 

it's not finished 

I'm in a WEIRD mood 

mildly irritated 

at a bunch

of little 

STUFF 

I think YOU are the

BEE'S knees

& that SOUNDS 

SILLY 

BUT 

it's not 

it's 

SWEET, maybe 

I LOVE you 

VERY very

MOON

this is maybe a little 

incoherent

BUT 

I'm FEELING 

a BUNCH of FEELS 

❤️

I decided 

PAINTING 

in studio 

is okay

SO

I'm working on this one 

it's been an hour 

& there's only been

my mom's 

FRIEND 

YAY

for minimal 

CONTACT 

I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 💋🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦❤️

here's the grid wall

Last Wall Finished 

I was watching this

REEL

that ASKED 

when you were a kid

WHAT

was the sign

you used 

for whether 

someone was

RICH

&

I KNEW 

IMMEDIATELY 

if

you had one of those

TWO door

REFRIGERATORS

that dispensed

ICE and WATER 

then

RICH

THAT

is not a high threshold 

I'm thinking 

NOW 

BUT 

THAT

was my threshold 

😁

I need to get to bed

I LOVE you 

VERY 

MOON💋

👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦

🇨🇦❤️

I just watched a thing

ABOUT Stephen King's writing technique 

& I've probably seen 

SOMETHING 

about that before 

BUT 

I haven't heard 

the CAMPFIRE 🔥 

before 

I've got

that

CAMPFIRE thing too

I haven't used it

EXACTLY 

LIKE that

BEFORE 

I thought it was 

INTERESTING 

I have 

BI-MODAL bias

ABOUT 

stephen king

S0

it DEPENDS how

it HITS

I remember reading 

the SHINING 

when I was like eleven 

&

getting myself 

SPOOKED

looking over my shoulder

&

I had read

INTERVIEW with the VAMPIRE 

& OTHER such

I wasn't looking over my shoulder 

WHAT was he

DOING

it was SOMETHING 

he was doing 

I have this BIAS that

he has some sort

of psychological GENIUS 

he burrows into

your

BRAIN, somehow 

BUT 

THEN 

when I was working at the

BOOKSTORE 

he put out this graphic novel

CYCLE of the WEREWOLF

& I read it

& it was like

I used to watch

the horror movies

on television when I was a kid

all the old black and white ones, ya know

&

it I sat down

& SUMMARIZED the jist

of watching 

ALL THAT

NOTHING new, or interesting, nothing no twist

THAT

was cycle of the werewolf 

& I'm LIKE 

HACK

SO

it intrigues me

when I find

points

of identification with him

I'm trying to figure out 

WHY

the best I can do

is to say

he's 

INTERNALLY 

CONTROVERSIAL 

there's this

probably unimportant 

THING

NORMALLY 

I am the one telling my mom

we should try to get there

EARLY 

BUT 

this time

the open studio 

starts at one

TOMORROW 

& I've got

everything ready already

EXCEPT 

I want to hang two more pictures 

BUT 

they are 12"x12" and I needed to 

ORDER the frames 

which have come

BUT 

the nails are in already 

I don't need to be there early 

&

I'm really not looking forward to the 

HUMAN interaction 

SHE'S LIKE 

I'll pick you up at eleven

do you have

SOMETHING in mind

for the extra time 

& she was really 

WEIRD about it 

she did all this

OBFUSCATION 

& REDIRECTION

BUT 

I've no idea 

WHY

I slept 

LATE 

I think I dreamed about 

SNOW ❄️ 

I am 

MAYBE 

a little dissociated

I'm not sure what I did today 

I did binge watch a bunch of

all creatures great & small

a NEWER version 

I GUESS 

I'm having a harder time 

FLOATING above

BC--MAINER 

talked about the battle hymn of the republic 

& you might not believe this 

BUT 

my dad used to sing THAT any time there was the slightest provocation to do so

he would work it in

I don't know 

WHY

LIKE 

I MEAN 

with some stuff 

I would like 

FINALLY 

SEE

REBEL WITHOUT a CAUSE 

& suddenly 

SOMETHING 

that never really made sense 

it's ALL I EVER do

BUT 

I never found the

REFERENCE point 

for

battle hymn of the republic 

SO

it just 

HIT

WEIRD 

is it

do you think

SOME kind of 

SISYPHUSness

the continual NEED

to analyze 

to try to make some kind of SENSE 

TODAY 

I didn't try to make sense of 

ANYTHING 

I just rested

I'm sorry I didn't talk much 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦

it was very distracting 

the squeaky toy

interesting talk

about

the dodgers

it was KINDA 

a WEIRD 

day

I need to sleep 

I LOVE you 

MOONS

💋🫶👾🫚🍀☁️☕🐦🎯

I was thinking about

my saying

yelling at the TV 

is just something I do

& I REMEMBERED 

& WONDERED

whether

I've ALREADY 

TOLD you 

ABOUT 

my LETTER to NIXON 

I dictated to my gran gran

as I could not

TYPE 

or WRITE 

I'm UNCERTAIN 

WHY I FELT 

CALLED

I almost don't write this

because, I MEAN, surely 

it's not interesting 

BUT 

it made me happy 

SO

I'm going to tell you 

my MAKEUP is all

that kind of

NEW hybrid skincare

COVERGIRL 

simply ageless

SKIN perfector ESSENCE

it's very light hydrating SERUM 

with bakuchiol

& shimmer

PIGMENT

&

KOPARI

bright as day

zinc oxide tinted sunscreen

it's got that little bits of brightness

and this KINDA peachy

COLOR 

and this is NEW

this COMBO

ulta does these sales

stuff is fifty percent off

SO

I usually end up 

GETTING 

something 

the KOPARI is from that

they discontinued an 

OIL of theirs

I was in love with

AND

THIS sunscreen seemed promising 

zinc oxide clears my skin

USUALLY 

but it's usually kinda claggy

THIS 

is liquid

light as air

& somehow 

a color match

I looked in the visor mirror 

driving home from the studio 

I was pretty happy with it 

I'm trying to 

FOCUS

on the

JOY

of the 

what I would tend to call the perfect thing

BUT 

THAT places 

the EMPHASIS 

in the WRONG place 

the THING 

that WORKS-- 

SATISFYINGLY 

SERIOUSLY though 

it FEELS 

LIKE 

the

SHAPE 

OR

proportions 

of my LEGS

are

SOMEHOW 

LESS

in need of voluminous 

COVER

AND

I am LESS

in NEED

of ARMOR 

OK

I WANT to know 

ABOUT the

EXCITING news

what I have to talk about is less exciting 

I bought these pants

I saw them

& cuddl duds is a brand

I am currently 

positively 

BIASED

towards

what REALLY sold me on them

they have this print

it's like houndstooth or something 

& I'm LIKE 

come on

SERIOUSLY 

they are 

JOGGERS

I'm LIKE 

REMEMBER those pants 

I USED to have 

I had some similar pants

LONG TIME AGO

they should NOT have looked good on me

BUT 

they LOOKED amazing 

&

I was convinced it was the 

PRINT

SO

I GOT them

& I put them on

& it was LIKE 

I wasn't wearing pants

in terms

of there being 

NO RESISTANCE 

no discomfort, nothing to make me THINK about PANTS

BUT 

after I wore them all day

OUT 

when I got HOME and LOOKED in the MIRROR 

I was LIKE 

WAIT, WHAT

these pants are technically french terry

BUT very fine gauge

HOW 

had I not FELT 

VULNERABLE 

THAT awareness 

was WEIRD 

I even think

they might be a little tighter

than is perhaps 

OPTIMAL

BUT 

I'm LIKE 

THIS 

all the time, please

it's quite a sporty look

I seem to be

DEVELOPING 

BESS greenberg!

YOU 

ARE

CLASS

that whole interaction was 

a CLASS ACT

❤️

I'm listening to 

TK today 

BOOGER 

always teaches me something 

it's thunderstorms here

all day today 

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

I hope you are having a beautiful day 🫶

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you 

MOONS

🫶🫶🫶

👾🫚🍀

☁️☕🐦

OK

I am not sure

if the dandelion is done 

I was going to 

layer more

make it

MORE 

coming 

OUT AT ya

BUT 

THEN 

I thought it seemed like 

I was underneath 

the flower

looking 

UP

THRU

I'm NOT sure 

if it looks finished 

to OTHERS 

BUT 

I'm LIKE 

LIKING it 

I been thinking about you 

all day

❤️

I went with this one for this spot although I like the other one better

have FUN out there!

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋

🤪🧲🛸🧲🧠🧲☕

had a hard time 

articulating

BUT 

I got

SOME 

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you 

MOONS

🫶🫶🫶

👾🫚🍀☁️☕🧠💋

🧲🛸

you remember when

I was giving

you

playlists 

LIKE 

some kind of heist cast of characters

well

THAT

I was realizing 

is pretty much the WAY I do things

or maybe 

HOW 

I think about things

LIKE 

in ancient egyptian art

they represented the human body 

in this WEIRD way 

BECAUSE 

they were trying to 

SHOW 

ALL

THE

BEAUTY 

different angles 

at once

SOMETHING 

about my body

OR

the way

I SEE

my body 

&

I WISH I 

KNEW 

which of those it was

BECAUSE 

I'd like to

KNOW 

which stuff I'm doing is working 

therapy was cancelled 

his mother is 

worse

& he was going to louisiana 

I went back to sleep 

for

my plan was

another hour

BUT 

I didn't get up

till two or so

I am

not freaking out 

although there is plenty to freak out about

I hope you are doing well 

& that your

resistance to freak out

is strong

I unsubscribed 

from a bunch of media

idk

it's 11:11 again

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋🫶

please take good care of yourself 

it's 

STRANGE DAYS 

out there

crap

I should already 

LONG 

been asleep 

goodnight sweetheart 💋

I LOVE you 

🫶MOONS🫶

👾🫚🍀

☁️☕🧠

OK

as part of

MAINTAINING contact

with america 

I'm going to 

listen to

TK

BUT 

I'm not going to be 

LIKE 

MUST listen to 

EVERY show

& if I'm not 

feeling 

SOLID 

I'll suspend listening until I do

WAIT 

WHAT 

did I miss 

SOMETHING 

or is this

NEW

news

I just saw

that one thing

I LOVE that he

SANG along

❤️

you ARE pretty

EPIC 

🧠💋

THAT

WAS

GREAT

I'm so happy you got

to sit at the table

the whole 

time

🎯💎

ALSO 

mailbag

he REALLY likes you

ps van by the river

❤️

CONGRATULATIONS 

on having something to 

WRITE about 

FOR YEARS 

AND

it isn't horrible 

that's NOT a CROW 🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛🐦‍⬛ 

DRESSED UP

as an 🦅🦅🦅 

EAGLE

THIS 

is a fabulous 

BINGHAMTON 

DAY for me

these two are more or less finished and might be good here although the dandelion one might be better when it's done, not sure

I LOVE you 

🫶MOONS🫶

I'm gonna try to sleep 

I predict 

I will either 

pass out

or

have to

MEDITATE

have I told you

I used to live

near

TWO

TRAIN TRACKS

it was close ENOUGH to 

be a regular AMBIENT noise

tell time-ish by it SOMETIMES 

BUT 

NOT 

right on top of me

I LOVED the 

TRAIN SOUNDS 

goodnight sweetheart 💋

I LOVE you VERY much 🫶 

👾🫚🍀☁️☕☁️

🧲🛸

I've got

morning in los angeles 

STUCK in my HEAD 

BUT 

it's like a film score

it's BIG

LIKE 

ORCHESTRA big

& it's keeps

going off

on these little COMBO 

flourish/solo improv

with ADDED 

flamenco 

it's 

FILLING 

me UP

I HOPE 

you are having

ADVENTURES

& FUN

& meeting cool people 

I hope the weather 

is an enjoyable 

EXPERIENCE 

or at least

neutral 

ya know 

I want 

GOOD 

STUFF 

the temperature here

is more normal 

RAINY ⛈️ 

I didn't do my laundry 

I don't know how to 

DESCRIBE 

I am KINDA spaced out

I AM able to FOCUS 

on the way my artwork looks

& I'm pretty happy 

SO far--

I just keep trying to think

WHAT GOES

BETWEEN 

those two paintings 

what have I got

I've GOT 

a bunch of red stuff

that won't look good there

& that I'm not that happy with 

I've got 

a bunch of unfinished stuff 

well, maybe "a bunch" is a stretch 

I've got some

older stuff

BUT 

I want that spot to be

NEW, new

& I'm NOT SURE any of the NEW new stuff 

WORKS 

I've got all my mom's stuff 

moved and hung

I still have to 

PACK up all my PAPERS 

BUT 

I can't do THAT 

if I'm still 

PAINTING 

SO

I'm going to 

PAINT

tomorrow 

I AM able to FOCUS 

on the WAY

my clothes 

FEEL

&

to SOME degree 

the WAY

my body 

FEELS

I haven't been able to 

MAKE myself 

take

my "vitamins"

NORMALLY 

I KINDA 

enjoy 

that

BUT 

it STARTED 

a few days ago

some sh*t about

NOT having to do stuff 

on account of it being a 

SNOW ❄️ DAY

I took them

on all the days

it didn't ACTUALLY 

SNOW ❄️🌨️ 

BUT 

it was

KINDA a battle

& APPARENTLY the battle continues 

I'm NOT saying 

ANY of that

makes

SENSE 

I am falling asleep 

I have a desire 

to talk to you

BUT 

I don't seem to be talking 

THAT 

is one

I'd really like to see 

you know 

it's gonna be seventeen degrees 

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you 

MOONS 🫶

👾🫚🍀

☁️☕☁️

❤️

I am worn out

it's not done

I'm probably not going tomorrow 

that painting 

that I renamed

MORNING in LOS ANGELES 

it always WAS

KINDA

a fantasy LA

BUT 

I called it 

FLOATING world 1

or SOMETHING 

LIKE 

BUT 

THAT SONG 

has been running round my HEAD

& when I was typing the email 

to donna 

I changed it

ALSO

RED DAY GLO

with the fireflies one

it was just fireflies 

BUT 

again, while typing I had a thought

fireflies just says

HEY here's some fireflies, see

it only asks you to look

I thought ASKING 

HEY

REMEMBER 

seemed a little more

ENGAGING/confrontational

the other one

didn't 

previously

have a name

& I'm not hundo about this name

I'm HAPPIER than 

LAST time 

with

HOW it

LOOKS 

BUT 

I don't feel like it's 

FINISHED 

my hallway wall

just needs

ONE

MORE 

& I REALLY WANT it to be

a 12"x16" framed

which I'm pretty 

CONFIDENT

wii fit

my studio walls

NEED WORK 

I have a BUNCH 

of UNFINISHED 

STUFF 

we'll 

SEE

OK

I'm NOT gonna

LOOK at

ELIE 

BC--mainer 

was already MORE 

than I can ACTUALLY handle 

andras

isn't making enough sense to me

to even

COMMENT 

I just see your smile

AND 

a flash of green

AND

the twister

shifts

AWAY 

I LOVE you sweetheart 💋 

I gotta go to sleep 

let's DREAM 

some

good 

stuff

...🔥...

...🫶...

...❤️...

👾🫚🍀

☁️☁️☁️

☕☕☕

☁️☁️☁️

that's a dangling participle 

OK

YEAH

I forgot 

CARVEL said

he didn't think the

ELECTION 

was gonna be close

I was sure

I thought he meant

KAMALA wins by a larger margin than you think 

I trusted that as

LEGIT

because of just this skill 

CARVEL's got good

INSTINCT

and

I think he might be 

SOME type of

GENIUS

I can't remember 

EXACTLY what 

I KNOW 

SO

was he fooled

OR 

did I read him 

WRONG 

he DIGGED it

😁😁😁😁😁😁

OH

I got a heating 

STORY

OK

REMEMBER 

a few years

AGO

TEXAS

had the grid go down 

SO

the POWER has

OFFERED

people this cool new way to "save" money

they can go on a VARIABLE rate

NOW 

I say this is a scam, been saying that

I have a five year contract

BECAUSE 

THAT

sh*t

NEVER 

goes DOWN 

BUT 

the VARIABLES 

lot of them

GOT

LIKE 

three thousand dollar electric bills

I'm pretty sure 

there were lawsuits

okay, going back 

OK

listening now 

RETURN of the 

MOUSE

I'm putting these in the show

CONTROL/ALT/REPEAT

16"x20" mixed media 

MORNING in LOS ANGELES 

20"x20" acrylic 

REMEMBER fireflies???

30"x40" acrylic 

I renamed them

does this seem good?

MAYBE 

they aren't new enough 

BUT 

I thought I'd do the newer stuff in the studio 

I didn't have a chance 

BEFORE 

I left to do all the things 

SO

it may be 

TONIGHT-ish

BUT 

I'm looking forward to 

TK

I have STUFF to do 

TOMORROW 

it's supposed to be up in the fifties, maybe

you

can't 

WAKE

UP

unless you go to

SLEEP 

is true

&

it SOUNDED 

for a second there

LIKE 

it was also going to be deep

I'm not seeing it though

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

🫶MOONS🫶

❤️👾🫚🍀

☁️☕☁️

🧲⚾💤

.....🔥.....

.....🫶.......

p.s. I love you very much 

p.p.s. I think I enjoy emojis 

the MOON in

it's SOCKET

OH NO

I'm afraid so

MOON SOCK-IT to ME

do you feel better

because I do not 

moon socket moon socket

STOP

OH

HA

that video ended up

being an ad

for a webinar

or something 

I'm not buying all of that

BUT 

there are

BITS of it that

DANCE to the

QUANTUM music

I like those edges, up in there

I found him 

UNnecessarily HOMOsapien-ist

& I didn't like the

USE of the word

WORTHY 

PARTS

of it though

FIT some quadrant

ACTIVATED

by sh*t david Lynch said 

in his closing remarks 

I just saw

this guy

& he's 

TALKing

ABOUT 

meditation and centering and whatnot

AND

he says I ask myself three questions 

WHO AM I

WHERE AM I

AND

his third one didn't quite match

what my daddy and I 

CHANTED

I forgot until JUST now 

the guy in the video 

WHAT am I doing 

BUT

we said

WHAT am I DOING HERE

who am I

where am I

what am I doing here

who am I

where am I

what am I doing here 

HUH 

in fact

THIS MIGHT be 

FUNNY 

it's funny to me

my mom didn't change her name

when she married 

BOB 

BUT 

he put her with his name

in all the STUFF 

AND

it has caused her some large amount of trouble 

she b*tCHes about it 

FREQUENTLY 

& I just KINDA mumble, something 

SOMETIMES more like

yeah, I KNOW, you've 

MENTIONED it

SOMETIMES more like

you NEVER SAW any

PAPERWORK 

BUT 

we were driving around the other day

& she was LIKE 

WHO could have

KNOWN 

AND

I was LIKE 

WHEN you TOLD me

YOU were GONNA

MARRY him

I ASKED 

you if you were gonna change your name

and you said NO,

OF COURSE 

NOT 

&

I SAID

THAT is a CONVERSATION 

you NEED to HAVE 

BEFORE 

you get

MARRIED 

DID you HAVE that CONVERSATION 

NO

well, THAT is HOW you'd KNOW 

edited

I still haven't put

TOGETHER 

what

I was trying to say 

ABOUT 

FILM

BUT 

I want to tell you

ABOUT 

my eleven year old* 

*possibly twelve, I'm not sure

OSCARS theory

I don't remember 

the films

& the people SPECIFICALLY involved 

BUT 

I became 

CONVINCED that 

JUDGES

were CONSIDERING THINGS people did in previous years that they MAYBE deserved to WIN for that OTHER TIME 

SO

TO ME

THIS INVALIDATED

the ENTIRE thing

if it wasn't 

ABOUT 

WHO

DID

BEST

what were we EVEN DOING here

I think 

I'm not sure 

HOW 

I feel about it 

NOW 

I THINK 

I currently believe 

that although I can't say I was 

WRONG exactly 

I THINK 

it's easier to believe in an

OBJECTIVE 

WINNER 

when you're LOOKing

from ONE perspective 

my ONE TAKE at the time--

it's ALL POLITICS 

I was QUITE dramatic about it

I considered it a disillusionment 

THAT'S HOW I 

THOUGHT 

of them*

*I was making a list

WARNING--

[I'm sorry, I think this is really funny now, but it might not sound that way]

LATER 

I ADDED 

--HEY, I THOUGHT 

you were SUPPOSED to 

be able to TRUST 

PARENTAL 

ADVICE--

BUT 

one hundred percent 

if I JUST 

DID what I 

THOUGHT 

DIDN'T 

ASK

BETTER 

this was ALL an adolescent 

THING-- 

the LIST of 

DISILLUSIONMENT 

SHOUT OUT 

to map sh*t

I can't 

follow

AWW that was sweet 

telling his son

he was a much better 

PARENT 

KOUFAX 

UECKER

SOUP drops

soup you can suck on

marblehead not Revere

GLUCK

to be clear 

is he saying that he likes AI GLUCK 

BETTER than 

ACTUAL GLUCK

or that it's 

SCARY 

HOW 

close AI gets

I haven't had that experience 

& I should probably 

LISTEN again 

hang on

well

I mean

it rhymes nice

BUT 

it doesn't seem to have

MUCH GLUCK

although I'm FAR from an expert on GLUCK 

I hope you're having a beautiful day sweetheart 🫶 🫶 🫶 

BARRY!

I am first and foremost 

a WISE GUY 

& I CAN appreciate THAT 

my screaming at the television 

is a thing I do

I'm not trying to 

be disruptive 

to ya'll's 

relationship 

DARIUS 

SINGS

the mailbag

Rocky Raccoon 

MY DAUGHTER wants

to see the

SUPER BOWL 

BECAUSE 

of taylor swift 

I'm sorry 

YOU'RE WELCOME 

OK

I know it's 

PROBABLY 

OBJECTIVELY 

something to mention 

if a public official

mis-spells the team name

in a chant

BUT 

I hear

WOMAN

& it's TONE DEAF for the

HAND MAID MOMENT

ALSO 

WTF

can't pick Caitlyn Clark 

OUT of a LINE UP 

DUDE?!

I think this is yesterday's show

BUT 

I'm listening to it

ANYWAY 

mathew macconnehey*

*way too many letters, but it makes me laugh so I'm leaving it for you to see what I'm working with here

SHOUT OUT 

SNOW ❄️❄️❄️🌨️🌨️🌨️ 

in HOT

places

Did I say

goodnight 

I think I did 

I'm thinking 

SCATTER shot

🔥

🫶

I am looking forward 

to listening to TK

& I usually 

enjoy

the show anyway 

JUST 

a very strong world

BUT 

I have been thinking about it 

ALSO 

completely unrelated to that 

DO you think

ABRAHAM hicks

is really 

CHANNELING 

I MEAN 

it KINDA doesn't matter 

BUT 

I'm CURIOUS 

I LOVE you 

VERY 

MANY 

MOONS

💋🫶

👾🫚🍀

⚾☁️☕🔥❄️

🧲🧿💤💤

I had this 

WHOLE thing 

ABOUT 

how I loved movies

&

then I had this WHOLE thing 

I FIGURED out

ABOUT 

the OSCARS

BUT 

I somehow 

LOST the THREAD

that TIED me to WHAT I was

TRYING to 

ACTUALLY 

SAY

BUT 

MAYBE 

it ties in with

DAVID LYNCH 

& how important he is

she doesn't seem to exist 

I saw her last time I was there

I thought she seemed

KINDA

LIKE 

destined for great things

I can't NOW remember 

any songs

she sang

& I probably didn't talk about her

I THINK 

I got very caught up with 

ANOTHER girl

who was more the

VIBE

I was ON at the time

BUT 

it would have been 

GREAT to

SEE 

THAT 

BUT 

I AM

HAPPY 

you got to connect with good people 

that is a good good thing 

OH

I almost forgot 

the semi-motivating

impetus

she LOOKED a lot

LIKE 

a girl I used to go to school with

who MIGHT be

LIKE 

OBJECTIVELY 

the COOLest person I ever knew

LINDLEY STORM

f*CK

now I have to Google her

well

I guess I'd been

DRIVING 

four years

SO

NOT 

like new new driver

OH

I thought of a STORY 

it wasn't SNOW 

there was an

ICE storm

MAYBE 

whatever it was

the STREET conditions were

DON'T DRIVE

&

CHARLOTTE 

had called to tell me

because she knew

I was driving to 

WORK

BUT 

she didn't get me

she got my mom, because I had already left

& my mom is like 

oh no

she had to go OPEN the CART for me

it was pretty scary

I hadn't been 

DRIVING 

all that

LONG

I saw some reel 

SOMEWHERE 

& it's like 

HOUSTON 

POUNDED

with this idealic nice snow

"driving"

cause

WIND

this beautiful 

what is, I MEAN, I can tell

it's NICE snow

BUT 

I ALWAYS say

if three snowflakes fall from the sky

the ENTIRE city

SHUTS DOWN 

METRO closed

on Monday

I am

LIMITING 

what I watch

BC--mainer

Elie

B-mo is like cultural correspondent

other stuff gets in

BUT 

I cannot let myself 

ABSORB

ya KNOW 

I am NOT 

HELPING ANYONE 

by FREAKING out 

SURREAL

I don't know 

HOW much you 

KNOW about 

TEXAS

I don't have any real sense of what 

might be general knowledge 

I think THIS might be 

if I owned HELL

& TEXAS

I'd LIVE in HELL 

AND

RENT texas OUT 

for SOME reason 

I keep thinking about that 

& HELL freezing over

AND

the surreal nature of the country

right now 

&

it was GOOD to be

TOGETHER 

I guess METRO 

thinks

WEATHERPOCALYPSE

will be over

regular public transportation 

RESUMES

tomorrow 

❄️❄️❄️

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋 

it's COLD here❄️❄️❄️

I hope you are having a beautiful day 🫶

I wish I had something 

GENIUS

to say

BUT 

I'm still absorbing 

I guess 

I am looking forward to 

being TOGETHER 

❤️❤️❤️

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you 

MOONS

❄️❄️❄️🫶👾🫚🍀☕⚾☁️🫶❄️❄️❄️

🧲🧿💤

I don't 

enjoy

estrogen 

🤪🤣😆

I feel BETTER today 

I hope you are having a beautiful day sweetheart 💋💋💋 

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you VERY much 🫶

👾🫚🍀☕⚾☁️

🧲🧿💤

❤️

I was standing 

OUTSIDE 

in shirt sleeves

&

it was thirty five degrees

AREN'T you COLD 

the OUTSIDE of me IS

BUT 

it's not getting 

IN

ANYWAY

my skin just

DRANK

that STUFF 

and I was VERY happy with the results 

but, I mean, I wasn't buying it AGAIN 

because it was HELLA expensive 

it had been a SPLURGE 

BUT 

korean skincare

opened up

affordable growth factors 

I have had good luck with the ordinary 

& I got it as soon as I could 

I decided to pair it with

EUK 134

& I like the cocktail 

every bit as much as I thought I would 

the two together

are about the same price

BUT 

SO MUCH MORE 

&

such a nice TEXTURE 

I'm REALLY enjoying them

the ordinary 

is a canadian company 

I just fell asleep and deleted my next thing 

NENA OIL*

*I'm paraphrasing in an edit-y way

TEXTURE=that oil I was missing 

I'm SO happy 

it SMELLS different 

BUT 

surprisingly adjacent 

NENA is also a canadian company 

ALSO 

the neck cream

is MAGIC 

OH

I almost forgot 

there was this STUFF I wanted to TRY

it's by a company 

I have one of those BIASES against 

I was NOT going to buy it

BUT 

I get a free birthday gift 

with my membership 

& THAT was

ONE

of the choices, I mean, travel size

I REALLY like it

I MIGHT buy it

good

month

for skincare

OK

I guess NOW I'm GONNA stop stopping myself 

from telling you 

my EXCITING 

SKINCARE

NEWS

I FIGURE 

you have like ZERO interest

in skincare

BUT 

if I'm GONNA be positive 

I think 

SKINCARE 

is what we're 

WORKing

WITH 

I ran out of my egf serum

& the ordinary 

came out

with one

it is definitely not the same

it is possibly 

a stronger

concentration 

BUT 

I'm not sure 

they kinda just say

plant derived grow factors

rather than

LIKE 

sh-1 ogliopeptide

I FIRST got into

GROWTH factors 

I went to probably 

NIEMAN'S 

in the galleria 

which I didn't do frequently 

& I saw

REVIVE

which was a new product

this was maybe 

two thousand two 

I got this OIL FREE moisturizer 

the sales lady said it had

HIGHER percentage of 

GROWTH factors 

BUT 

OIL FREE 

FELT 

GOOD 

&

I went to a conference 

for work

it was

at keystone Colorado

THAT

was when I

UNDERSTOOD 

about 

DRY

(continuing)

my phone

says it's snowing 

BUT 

I can HEAR it

I looked out the door

& I'm calling it

MIXED

SLEET/freezing rain

the WIND is 

HOWLING 

pretty

good

BUT 

I haven't had ANY

interruptions 

in POWER 

or WATER

it has been 

a WEIRD 

DAY

I KNOW 

they say

don't look at your phone first thing 

BUT 

I usually do 

& it's a beautiful song

BUT 

I just saw

puppyfish

& I can't get past it

I KNOW it isn't 

puppyfish 

& you 

PROBABLY aren't trying to 

make me think about 

him

because 

WHY

I have no reason to think 

you're trying to make me 

UNTHINKABLY 

SAD

BUT 

I'm having trouble with that

which, I mean 

MAYBE 

is distracting me from the world 

BUT 

I'm not sure how talk-y 

I can make myself 

BE

I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 🫶

goodnight sweetheart 💋 

I LOVE you 

MOONS

👾🫚🍀☕⚾☁️❄️❄️❄️

🧲🧿💤🫶

I DROVE my car 

WINTER ❄️ STORM❄️ WARNING 

I'm KINDA 

SCARED

🧲🧿

I'm FEELING like

it's hard to describe 

I'm getting 

CLOSE 

to another level

BUT 

I GOTTA 

NOT MISS

some

DOORWAY 

I FEEL like 

that DREAM was a GOOD

SIGN

I don't know exactly what it is trying to tell me 

BUT 

I FEEL like 

the MESSAGE has to be

SOMEWHERE in 

the you CAN do 

MORE than you THINK you can

I FELL once

years ago

DOWN some STAIRS

when I was living in the attic 

it wasn't that far to fall, I guess 

BUT 

I had just woken up

my LIFE 

FLASHED*

*I swear to God

& when I STARTED 

back AWARE 

I ran some kind of reboot protocol 

SYSTEMS check

POSSIBLY 

I LEFT my 

BODY

THAT 

didn't happen in the dream 

I was WALKING 

THEN

I was walking IN AIR

FREEWAY beneath 

ME 

& HIGH ENOUGH UP

the fall would 

PROBABLY 

KILL

ME

OK

I can't remember all of it

I was waiting for 

someone

in a car

THEN

ended up driving 

SOMEWHERE 

ALONE

there was a problem with the car

I got 

OUT 

I walked 

OFF the ROAD

I'm not sure exactly how this happened 

I FEEL like 

I didn't SEE that I was in 

DANGER of doing THIS 

BUT 

THEN

I was

FALLING 

& I THOUGHT 

well, THAT'S IT THEN

BUT 

even though I 

MUST

have been falling with my body facing the direction I was walking

I WAS FACING the

OVERPASS*

*or bridge or whatever it was with no railing at all 

AND

I GRABBED it

well, I CAN'T POSSIBLY HOLD my WEIGHT 

by my FINGERS 

BUT 

I DID

I WALKED myself 

from the middle to the side

HANGING 

& moving my hands

LIKE 

hanging hand crab walking 

which there is probably a term for

& it 

DIDN'T EVEN SEEM

DIFFICULT 

THEN

I climbed down the side of the freeway 

THIS 

SEEMED

AMAZING 

LIKE 

I couldn't believe it 

& I wasn't 

AWARE-- hey you're in a DREAM 

I'm pretty sure 

there continued to be MORE 

BUT 

THAT 

is all I remember