i love you
i am up to this challenge
it's almost there in my head
almost
it's a short story
it's inspired by chapter 1 of
the crying of lot 49
[did you know that the title of that
is inspired by ulysses?]
i'm not kidding
but
it also has to serve as the first chapter
of the book
and i'm not sure what i'm calling it
i might use the grackle thing
and this is the rough draft
but
i'm hopeful that this format works
that thing i wrote you earlier
was supposed to be the first line
but
i'm not so sure now
i think maybe it's too flippant
it needs to be at least fifteen or twenty pages
i'm working it out on paper first
and
really
for this one
most of the material has already been written
in one form or another
and i am going to talk to the reader
because
i was always going to do that
but
i'm haunted by that brilliant bit at the beginning
i've almost got it memorized
mrs oedipa maas came home from a tupperware party where the hostess has perhaps put too much kirsch in the fondue to find a letter telling her she had been made executor, executrix she mused something something
she looked at the dead green eye of the television set said the name of god tried to feel as drunk as she could but it didn't work. she thought of a door in mazatlan that had been slammed maybe forever releasing 200 birds and the sunrise from a slope by the library which nobody ever saw because it faced west and something something bartok something something and the whitewashed bust of jay gould on a too narrow shelf about pierce's bed that always made her afraid that it would fall on them. is that how he died? crushed in his dreams by the only icon in the house. and that got her laughing. you're so sick oedipa she said to herself, or the room which knew. or something
i haven't got the book yet
i've got the audible
it's been in my library
i'm pretty sure i listened to it years ago
except while i was going to sleep
so maybe i heard it all or maybe i didn't
but
that whole sequence
that starts the book
and i love it
i'm not looking to start like that
anyway there's punctuation i'm certain
and i know i missed bits
but
i want something
i haven't got it yet
but
i'm leaning towards starting
with waking up from a dream
i'm just in awe of how he establishes
who she is
and her emotional state
and blah blah
so quickly
whatever
a dream is much more me
i love you sweetheart
goodnight
