nite chat: 3:25

so the weirdest thing in all of this
is that
still
what i'm getting psychically
is
everything is fine
you are where you are supposed to be
everything is fine

now
logically and viscerally and emotionally
i'm getting
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg
wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf

but
psychically
it's all good

how can that possibly be right?!

but
psychically
i don't think i've ever been steered wrong
so
i am both super duper stressed
and
quite calm

and it is the weirdest sensation
the weirdest experience

idk how to describe it
it is slightly out of body-esque