quotidienne: coffee + toast 3:22

i'm not actually having coffee and toast
that's just what this category is called
i had oatmeal with raisins and apricots
with hemp hearts and oat bran added in
and maharantha banana peanut butter
and coffee with soy milk
oh
and the oatmeal was cooked in oat milk
cause i gotta use that up before it goes bad

i'm feeling a bit depressed today

and
the friday go out to pick up the check
looks like it's cancelled
they're closing down
and now i have to worry about how i'm gonna get that check at all
i don't have direct deposit
and they seem to think everyone has direct deposit
and the corporate types aren't in
so
will it get mailed to me, idk
i'm trying to be a squeeky wheel
the severance won't come for twenty days
because that makes sense
so
i'm a little worried that they're gonna fuck me

i got a briefing from a friend today
who's pretty sure the world is ending
and i haven't fact checked yet
but
he says if everyone in texas stays home for three months
like lockdown, not social distancing
that there will only be 1000 deaths and 170,000 hospitalizations
but, if we do anything other than complete lockdown
then something apocalyptic happens
i don't seem to have retained those numbers
but, ya know, really really bad

so maybe i don't want briefings either

i decided to see if i was right
that the fairly expensive dr roebuck's copper peptide serum breaks me out
hoping against hope that it wouldn't
so
i was right
and yesterday my face was a painful mess
which i'm recovering from quickly
with the centella ampoule
which really is a miracle product
but i wish i hadn't tested it
my face was completely clear
and now it's ugly again
and it hurts

so
grateful for skin 1004 madagascar centella ampoule
that's goin in the end of the world kit
continuing cool weather
[although there's a warm front coming
is that what you call it?
that's probably the reason for the headache
which continues unabated]

trees
when i step out onto my stoop
i am under the sheltering arms of several large oak trees
i love them

oh crap
the orange one is talking again
what is the maximum word that isn't death
that happened
rape?  torture?

no, i'm not going to commit to not profiting personally
i didn't take the salary and nobody thanked me

omg
where do i start?!

i think he is completely out of touch
but, ya know, he's a wartime president now

this one isn't so much information light
as
reality light