quotidienne: coffee + toast 3:27

ok
low level of sexual arousal
remains unabated
but
i think i recognize this feeling
i think
unless i'm crazy
this is what it used to feel like
to be alive

but
omg
i want you in me
today might be distracting

i'm having four pieces of toast
instead of two
two with sunflower butter
two with regular cow butter
and coffee wit soy milk

my head does hurt a little
in fairness
but
i think that's weather related
and it's not new

toast is delicious
i love toast
i still have bread and soy milk
and today
today i am going
at some point
to have a piece of fruit

i'm not kidding, i'm fucking giddy

is it possible
that my depression and low
to non-existent sexual desire issues
we somehow related to my lymphatic system?!
that seems far fetched
and yet
even knowing that the world is in bad shape

i must dance now!