ok
so this is what happened today

he said
the company has decided not to go ahead
with the job elimination process
at this time
we would like you to stay on
doing your same job
for an unspecified amount of time
at least two weeks
and then we will go ahead with the layoff
for whichever one of you it is

if you don't want to continue
we can go ahead with it now

so i said
can i think about that for a little while
which surprised him

so i took a couple hours
during which i was working
maybe not that long
maybe an hour and a half

and at first i couldn't think about it
my brain just wanted to focus on working
but
i made myself stop

i'm weighing all the variables

and then i asked

i really need some guidance
could you weigh in

and it said
you know you've been needing to leave
you know you are having to do it the hard way
do you want to be the hero of your own life
or
do you want to be a pussy who clings to things that are over
pathetically out of fear
until you end up not even getting the severance?



so
i have to go in friday to fill out paperwork
and then i'm unemployed