my day
it
was
WEIRD
MAYBE
HITS different
my mom was being released
from the hospital
& it was
WEIRD
when the social worker
talked to me back at the beginning
she SAID they were
gonna send her home
in a CAR
I TOLD my mom
I was going to therapy today
& coming by the hospital
LATER on today*
*this was before they were planning to send her home today, or before I knew about it
BUT
then she was all LIKE
they are sending me home
& I'm LIKE
find out
if the car is a hospital car
or if they are putting you
in a Lyft*
*they did send her in a Lyft before
I'm like DON'T ask
if they will have a wheelchair
JUST ask about the CAR
BECAUSE
it MIGHT
make them confused
& unwilling to send you in a car
I'm like in the history of my
HOSPITAL adventures
no one EVER got released
BEFORE 1pm
& RARELY
before 3
I'm like
if they
can't take you in
then you need to make SURE
it's NOT before 1:15pm
because
I can't get there
to get the wheelchair
& wheel it out
to get you
BEFORE
THAT
she texted me back
some sh*t
about she asked them if I could RIDE with her
I'm like I'm not gonna be THERE
I'm gonna be at therapy
KEEP me posted
NO update during therapy
the therapist
SAID something about
TODAY being
I can't REMEMBER
his exact WORDS
BUT
the IMPRESSION was
BREAKTHROUGH*
*but I'm not sure if I agree with that
I'm also not sure what he's doing
BUT
I'm CERTAIN that
he's doing something
OR
possibly more accurately
I'm DOING it
but he's
FACILITATING
OR
it's a process where I'm doing work
which I couldn't do
without going
& explaining
MYSELF
I'm not sure
BUT
SOMETHING is happening
& I'm inclined to FEEL
POSITIVELY
towards him
the WEIRD thing though
I USED to spend the week
going OVER & over
OVER
what we talked about
NOW I can hardly REMEMBER anything
I THINK that's
WEIRD
so she was SUPPOSED to get released
at 3:30p but it was more like
5:30p
AND I think she
REALLY wanted me to come be there
WAITING with her
BUT
in addition to it just being
KINDA ridiculous
to go all the way
to the hospital
I don't want to explain all the steps
it just makes EVERYTHING difficult
& I get a little PTSD
in the hospital
& I don't want her to get EXTRA attention
in the hospital
BECAUSE
I want her to REMEMBER
when she's
f*CKing around and finding out
NOT taking her water pills
eating sh*t with salt
LYING to ME
that the HOSPITAL is NOT FUN
SO
she had a big story to tell me
I don't know if it is true
it doesn't make sense
&
she
lies
I don't even really want to repeat it
she doesn't
THINK her leg is
BROKEN
