swing state rally
I'm so scattered
BUT
I THINK she's gonna win
BIG enough
that they will call it
Tuesday night
or into Wednesday morning
I don't KNOW
what kind of proud boys fallout there might be
I have SOME fear
that they'll be out trying to stop people from voting, but that might just be
PARANOIA
I couldn't understand the lyrics to the new one
I TRIED but I couldn't
I hope you are safe
& not freaking out as much as me
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart
I feel like I might pass out
please God
I KNOW
you didn't let t*ump die when he had COVID
like I wanted you to
PLEASE
let that be because he needed to LOSE
to a black woman
PLEASE
& ALSO PLEASE
LET there be a REPUDIATION of the
REPUBLICAN candidates
who lied & gaslit
& basically
sold their souls to hold on to POWER
AND PLEASE
NO having to fight against
AUTHORITARIANISM
every four years
I KNOW
there's work to do on racism
I UNDERSTAND
that it's partially a human trait
with the fear bias against the "other"
& the opening scene of 2001 looms large
if I'm supposed to figure out this
GRIEVANCE thing
I haven't YET
BUT
I'm trying HARD
I'm looking for SIGNS
I'm listening to the universe
& I don't even know what eight miles high
in my HEAD
this morning was supposed to mean
ALSO
I always thought
it was three miles high
& it was always
the SOUND
WHAT is with me & psychedelic STUFF
I'm not sure what kinda job I'm doing
with this mission
I MEAN
if I'm screwing it up
MAYBE some feedback, I could course correct
I don't FEEL wildly successful, ya know
& I'm NOT saying you need to help
with that
from LIKE a my feelings standpoint
BUT
there is a mission, right
ANYWAY
thanks for listening
I feel like
we don't talk as much as we used to
MAYBE that's my fault
or maybe it is just the natural way of things
PLEASE
take care of Db for me
PLEASE
help me get BETTER and show me
WHERE I make things better
I KNOW
I frequently say
I WISH I loved my mother more
BUT
I'm NOT actually SURE that I want that
it MIGHT just
HURT more
I REALLY just want to
UNDERSTAND
her HUMANITY and not see her as a SHELL
it REALLY brings me down
WHY
did I choose her for this lifetime
did I f*CK her up bad in a previous life
am I ATONING
or TRAINING
ANY GUIDANCE
is appreciated
please advise
