I never take naps
BUT
I just got under my weighted blanket
& the cat got on me
& I passed out
I'm having
BIG
maybe all the things I thought were true
maybe everything I thought I knew
maybe I was WRONG
I'm NOT talking about us
I'm just talking about me
& my disorientation
I went to a library
& I don't think I've been in a library
for twenty years
it was a good experience
& I wasn't sure how long it would take me
& I hadn't been there
so I allowed
an hour and a half
& it took me thirty minutes
I got there thirty minutes
BEFORE
the library opened
she helped me early
& I was finished
before my scheduled appointment time
I watched a thing about ADHD
I had asked
doesn't everyone do things
according to interest
BUT
I got the answer
NO
I still don't completely understand
what regular people
BUT
I remembered how I got through college
I DON'T forget any of the stuff
I have to do
I would make a list
of what was due WHEN
I would have whatever time I had
I would work on
WHATEVER
I could be interested in
for as long as I could maintain interest
THEN
I would move on to something else
PAPERS
I would THINK ABOUT all the time
chewing through
the material
in my mind
&
PRETTY much
write the paper
the day before it was due
or night before
I NEVER wrote
DRAFTS
I feel like this worked fine for me
I feel weird now
& you would probably not be wrong to worry
BUT
I'm gonna pull it together
I LOVE you VERY much
& I want very much to see you
