at the ren fair
& it shaped
me, that place
I don't THINK about it that way
BUT
it's true nonetheless
I haven't told you
when I went to duchene
I told you about
FEELING
VERY ALIENATED and out of place
I told you a bunch of little things
I THINK
and my mind has been wandering there
pretty regularly recently
I didn't really notice, at first
BUT
then I was LIKE
why is everything reminding me of duchene
BUT
of course EVERYTHING wasn't
I was ALSO
in the good apartment
I started a thing I didn't post
SIX years old
RUBBER SOUL
BUT
duchene
we had all these ENRICHMENT things
I f*CKing LOVED
& one of them
was about business in SOME WAY
AND
the woman asked me what I was going to do
& I said
I'm going to get a business degree
& a history degree
AND
OPEN a RENAISSANCE FESTIVAL
AND
she came over later
& said
something about seeing me with my long red hair
there was SOMETHING else
I can't REMEMBER it
BUT
it got coded as being
KINDA touched or inspired or moved
IDK -- LIKE
I've been watching you sitting there
& you kind of remind me of
some Renaissance lady
& I have no doubt
that you will
accomplish your dream
it was SOMETHING like that
you'd think I'd remember
BUT
I don't THINK
that WAS my DREAM
I think that was my "business" answer
I kinda forgot the whole interaction
