was OK
I spent some time
TRYING
to FEEL my
FREQUENCY
HOW do you want to
FEEL
then I took a long shower
made some tea
put my makeup on
after FORGETTING to
put MOST of the
PREP steps
on
which was
DISTURBINGLY absent minded of my*
*because it is LITERALLY habitual, the skincare
BUT
I was all LIKE
OK and just -- adjusted
It was TOTALLY fine
with my mom
NO problem
she did this THING
it's one of the DISGUSTED things
& it was REALLY bothering me
AND NOW I realize
I like back-filled
DISGUST
it's THIS noise she makes
& it JUST
FREAKS me OUT
every time I hear it
EVERY time
I go through this whole analysis of
WHAT AM i hearing?
it's SOMETHING to do
with SWALLOWING
BUT
NOT all SWALLOWING
JUST SOME swallowing
AND
she SMACKED her lips
ate with her mouth open
it WAS, I'm guessing
LIKE
SOME sort of HYPER AWARE thing
BUT
NOW
I back-fill the DISGUST
BUT
NOT TODAY
we went to Brazos bookstore
a book I ALMOST bought
is on the LONG LIST
I took THAT as a SIGN
& THEN
on the small press feature table
CONCERNING
the FUTURE of SOULS
by joy williams
which was CLEARLY
a SIGN
I have never heard of joy williams
at least I don't
THINK
I have
I hadn't heard of louise gluck either
