i love you

i had to go back and finish

but

i also had to do a bunch of stuff to my face

i like triple washed it

and did that thing with the witch hazel

and

retinol

it feels great now

it hasn't cleared up

but

it's those same spot just keep bringing stuff up

and i decided i'm just gonna run with it

peanut butter

that's where i came in

and i thought that's what we were talking about,but i wasn't sure

i think either everybody has the same experience with that oil situation

or else we're twinning

because that always happens to me

i like the kind of peanut butter that separates

it's probably better for you

but the kind i like better is the kind that probably isn't really food

so it keeps that nice smooth creamy texture the whole way

so i hadn't had the oil thing for a while

but

when iwent to that sunflower butter

it'll fuck with you

it starts off looking exactly like the fake food pb

and then it separates like a mf

and when you get to the bottom

it is dry af

and will almost kill you, those last three spoons full

even if you stirred it every time

i got this sauerkraut from the imperfect

because i feel like my micro biome is suffering

and they ask you when you add a new item

do you want this on every order

and fuck idk i haven't had it yet, idk what it's like

they won't ever ask me again, but i know if i wanted to commit

to sauerkraut every week

but

i think maybe i do

it says it's seventeen servings

seriously, like one tablespoon

who eats one tablespoon of sauerkraut

seems like, if you were having one hot dog it would be at least two tablespoons

and if you're scooping a big pile of sauerkraut into a bowl with an avocado and calling it a meal or scooping a small pile of it into a bowl and calling it a snack, either way you are using more than the hot dog even--  i figure it's about a weeks worth ,if you're eating it most days which is kinda the point

it's dill and garlic flavor which is refreshingly like pickles, but not as salty

i'd be a little happier if it was locally made--  surely there's some happy hippy fermen-tators in austin somewhere so they could lower the carbon footprint vs shipping it in from sonoma, but maybe there's a food waste story.   i don't think so, though

i want both peanut butter and a tuna sandwich with sauerkraut--  that's not true--  i want a veggie reuben--  it's possible i have ingredients for that i have avocado and bread [not rye bread, though] and sauerkraut [as previously mentioned] i don't have the russian dressing or swiss cheese [i have montery jack cheese {which is better, as it turns out, in pea salad that cheddar like so much better} and i could maybe make russian dressing, but no horseradish.  so i cannot really make a veggie reuben.  no i cannot, but i think maybe i'm gonna go try anyway because i am more excited about that than any food i've thought of in a long time.